First PersonSecret Lovebe
Chen Anxu's life has only one label from beginning to end - ordinary.
He has average looks, average grades, average personality, and average family background. He is the most inconspicuous person in the crowd. He is quiet, taciturn, and lackluster. He is used to being ignored and forgotten.
Li Zhi is the complete opposite.
He is dazzling, cheerful, outstanding, tall and tall, with gentle eyebrows. He is the focus of the whole school's attention. He is the boy who is favored by teachers and envied by everyone.
The fate of being the same classmate in high school was the only light in Chen Anxu's gloomy youth.
He is patient and gentle in his words. He will remember his little habits, take the initiative to talk to him, and give the little gentleness to him who is lonely.
Chen Anxu carefully cherished this friendship, but also quietly developed a secret love.
The young man was timid and humble. He knew the worldly view and knew that same-sex love was not accepted, so he hid it deeply and never disturbed her. He was only willing to watch from a distance in the name of a friend.
It wasn't until his second year of high school that Liu Song's appearance shattered his only stability.
He is beautiful, cheerful, and lovable, and has a similar family background to Yan Zhi, and has a good understanding of each other. The bond of living next to each other is a distance that Chen Anxu can never overcome.
The tenderness that once belonged to him was equally divided and replaced.
Yan Zhi's eyes gradually fell on others, and he was gentle, indulgent and ambiguous towards Liu Song.
Chen Anxu is deeply trapped in jealousy and powerlessness. He has low self-esteem, suffering, and repeated internal conflicts, but he has no right to be jealous, and no status to disturb him.
He could only retreat in silence, digesting all the sourness and regret alone.
The college entrance examination ended. In order to escape this hopeless heartbeat, Chen Anxu tried his best to apply for a university thousands of miles away.
He thought that separated by mountains and rivers, he could finally let go of his obsession and bid farewell to his youth with dignity.
But fate plays tricks on people.
Reunited in a different place, he saw with his own eyes that the boy who had missed his entire youth had already held someone else's hand.
It turns out that the ambiguity of those years was not an illusion, and those preferences never belonged to him.
From beginning to end, this secret love that no one knows about is just Chen Anxu's chaos.
The wind rises in midsummer, and the wind falls in the final chapter.
His love is grand and humble, and from beginning to end, there is only one regretful ending.
Intention: The undeclared heartbeat will only leave a regret in the end
