Bao Yu never thought that he would stand in front of Xu Su again as an employee.
He was the secret that she had not dared to reveal throughout her youth, and he was the name that was written over and over again in her diary. Many years later, she became a foreign language translator in his company. They met day and night, and had business and personal relationships. Those unspoken feelings in her youth were quietly revived through eye contact and late-night overtime work. She thought that this time, fate was finally willing to favor the timid.
But they are all very good at restraint. An unexplained misunderstanding led Xu Su to mistakenly believe that she was in love with someone, and Bao Yu walked to the blind date table at the urging of her parents. The other person was gentle and considerate, and unexpectedly clicked with her. She told herself that it was time to move forward - not to mention, she saw with her own eyes that Xu Su had sex with the partner's daughter, and heard about the well-matched engagement.
She didn't know that Xu Su's interactions were just out of control in the business world; he didn't know that when she agreed to go on a blind date, her phone screen was on all night long, waiting for a call that would never come.
Later, Xu Su became ill due to overwork and suffered a serious illness. Bao Yu finally went to the hospital. Through the glass on the ward door, the two of them met each other's eyes. They said a thousand words, but they all turned into silent restraint. She thought it was saying goodbye to the past, and he thought it was fulfilling her happiness.
Later, Xu Su was diagnosed with a brain tumor and failed to survive that winter.
And Bao Yu put on a wedding dress just the day before his death. She thought she finally had a plain and stable happiness, but she received the letter on the day after the wedding - Xu Su's last handwriting. Every word was filled with the love that she had not dared to express to her mouth all these years. Wearing her wedding dress, she stumbled to the hospital and only had time to touch his cold fingers.
It turns out they were so close to each other.
It turns out he was never engaged, never moved, never stopped loving her.
But fate never waits for anyone. She married life, he lost to life and death. The secret love that started in the corridor of high school never came to a happy ending, leaving only a late letter and a name that could never be answered.
——Some rain falls in my heart for a lifetime, but never makes a sound.
Intention: It took me many years to understand that what I was afraid of was not rejection, but the face of "I am worthy of being loved" itself. What a coward loses to is not the opponent, but the voice in his heart that keeps saying "I don't deserve it."