Cao Yanchen, whose pen name is "Jiuci", is a full-time online writer. He wrote about love and hate in the world, but he was a deserter in his own relationship for nine years. The heroine in his novels has been called "Qing Ci" from the first book. That was the girl he had a crush on in high school, Yue Qingci. He wrote her name into millions of words of stories, filled with regrets and misses, but never dared to make any ending happy. Because in reality, he never really walked in front of her.
It wasn't until the age of twenty-six that Yue Qingci moved across from him.
She became his neighbor, separated by a thin wall, and the sound of typing on the keyboard late at night could be clearly heard. They met at the door of the garbage room, walked side by side on morning runs, and shared an umbrella on rainy days. He thought he hid it well enough. But it turns out that some things cannot be hidden by restraint alone.
Nine years ago, they missed each other because of a blue note, a misunderstanding that no one revealed, and a cowardice unique to young people. Nine years later, the past was revealed layer by layer. All the seemingly one-sided gazes turned out to be never one-man shows.
This is a reckoning with a secret love that spans nine years. A man who writes his love in books but dare not say it out loud. A woman who is used to being strong on her own and never expects to be favored. They spent their days in the neighborhood getting closer, taking off their armor little by little, and moved from "waiting and watching alone" to "running in both directions"
Intention: "The meaning of secret love is not to let you look at someone from a distance for a long time, but to finally give you the courage to walk up to her one day and say: I have liked you since a long time ago."