Shen Yubai is gentle and courteous to others, well-educated, consistent with everyone around him, and has clear boundaries. He will never release his gentleness wantonly, and he is definitely not an ambiguous and casual person.
In the early autumn of my freshman year, I was the only one who showed a little more limited accommodation and concession to me.
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He is willing to accompany me for meals, walks with me, and is willing to tolerate my small emotions.
Everyone looked at this gentleness that was different from others, and mistakenly thought that he favored me. Even I was trapped in this vague ambiguity, repeatedly speculating and pulling on myself.
I still couldn't tell whether his rare looseness was a fleeting heartbeat or just a gentleman's polite accommodation.
I am sensitive, awkward, and worry about gains and losses. The more I care about it, the more I tend to be a little temperamental and try again and again.
The endless emotional internal friction slowly overwhelmed his extremely sober emotional mysophobia.
He is not scumbag, not perfunctory, and has never raised fish, but he just can't stand the suffocating way of getting along.
On the eve of when I gathered enough courage to want an answer,
He lost his composure, withdrew his dignity, and quietly took back all his gentleness.
It turns out that the most painful regret of youth is never not loving,
Maybe he has been tempted, maybe he has never been tempted,
We feel sad on both sides and leave blank space on both sides. It's just that we have conflicting personalities and are not compatible by nature.
Purpose: To write about the daily life of a campus crush between a gentle and restrained boy and a sensitive and sincere girl, and to compare the endings of two crushes with different choices, to interpret the timidity, pulling, stopping and self-healing of youthful heartbeats, and to accept the regrets of youth without answers, which is also growth.
