My name is Jian Jiang Ze, a straight man, social animal, homophobic, not a bad person.
This is my life label in 2026
Huang Xiqing is my brother, and we have been together for five years. Later he told me that he was gay.
I said, I understand; I said, I will definitely treat you as a friend.
But my body was moving backwards.
It took me a long time to understand: sometimes words spoken unintentionally can deeply hurt others.
Instructions before reading
1. First person! Because the narrative perspective can only be chosen between the attacking and receiving sides, in order to prevent misleading, I will talk about it separately:
⚠️⚠️⚠️This article is not unfolded from the perspective of the attacker and the victim, but from the perspective of a straight man! ⚠️⚠️⚠️
The narrator is a married straight man! ⚠️⚠️⚠️The narrator is a straight man⚠️⚠️⚠️The narrator is a straight man⚠️⚠️⚠️and this straight man is homophobic⚠️⚠️⚠️
There are some homophobic remarks and psychology in it, which belong to its character image and do not represent the author's position and his three views.
2. Slow-burning, not sweet-loving, and the characters are not pure white.
3. Nested memories, the timeline will jump, and the plot between attack and reception is relatively late.
4. Contains a small amount of stream of consciousness fragments
5. Some characters in the article have anti-gay mentality (for the purpose of characterization)
If you are sensitive to relevant comments, please consider carefully
The author is a senior in high school, so I will post everything I have written first. The update of the second half is still far away😭😭😭
Concept: The deepest hurt is often caused unconsciously