(Yin Shenying disguised herself as a man in the early stage, but later changed her identity)
[Updated chapter at 19:00 on 9/4]
In elementary school, I had a high fever that wouldn't go away for three days. I was worried that I was going to die, so I wrote my first suicide note to Yin Shenying and asked a neighbor kid to bring it to her.
In junior high school, I experienced a car accident. My mother said that I had injured my brain. When I was confused and confused, I wrote a second suicide note to Yin Shenying and asked my mother to bring it to her.
In high school, I encountered campus violence and was locked up in a warehouse for two days and two nights. When I was hungry, sleepy, and hallucinating, I wrote a third suicide note to Yin Shenying, pressed it against the crack of the warehouse door, and asked fate to bring it to her.
I thought she could always understand my thoughts, and she was the most important person in my heart at all times.
But she never came to see me once.
The first time, she was busy visiting East Lake with her friends. When she came back and saw my suicide note, she laughed at me for being greedy for life and afraid of death.
The second time, she was busy attending cram school, and the suicide note was lying on the desk, soaked by the rain. She told me that people will die.
The third time, she was busy dating her first love, and posted a kissing photo on her friends circle. The people who liked her were the same people who locked me up in the warehouse. She warned me not to tell anyone that we knew each other.
I think I won't like Yin Shenying anymore.
Because my life is about to end this autumn.
Cancer made me write the fourth suicide note, which was the final statement of my love for Yin Shenying.
Deep shadow, my life has been full of misfortunes, as if God prevented me from loving you. I thought I never regretted my righteousness, but when I was actually lying on the hospital bed and there was no news from you, I suddenly had the only regret in this life, that is, I failed to wake up earlier and give up loving you.
(Two-way secret love/abuse/chasing wife at the crematorium/third person/he)
Intention: Suffocating love to the extreme of hate
