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This article contains the background of an anti-narcotics undercover, including narrative descriptions of war trauma, PTSD, physical pain, nightmares, psychological breakdown, and violent past events; redemption is a long process, and there is no one-click recovery. The line of family and country is given priority, the line of love is for mutual comfort, and there is no need to beautify the criminal plot. Please read as appropriate. Don't enter if you are hit by thunder^_^
"My lover gave himself completely to the country, and the country gave me a broken person." "My lover used money to piece together my health, and I used my health to forge my medal."
Pei Jinglan × Fang Ling
The border undercover mission came to an end, and Fang Ling returned to his hometown with a scarred body and a broken soul.
When the smoke clears and the medals are added to the body, what is left for me is a body that is difficult to heal and a psychological gap that will never be smoothed away.
Businessman Pei Jinglan has been waiting for him for several years.
He had no way to bear the hail of bullets for Fang Ling, nor could he erase the past engraved in his bones and blood. He could only accept all his embarrassment, collapse and unwillingness to show vulnerability as his lover. On one side is the faith of family and country that is engraved in the bone marrow, and on the other side is the stumbling worldly love. Fragments of memory repeatedly return to the undercover years, and the shadows of old cases are still lingering in the darkness.
Fang Ling puts the people and the country first, and has long been accustomed to putting himself last.
And Pei Jinglan was willing to stay behind and accompany him to face the pain for a long time.
The country returned him a broken man,
And he wants to get his complete lover back bit by bit.
Purpose: To tell the story of an anti-drug policeman who faced both physical and psychological trauma after returning from an undercover mission, adhering to the faith of his family and country, while gaining the company of his lover, and completing self-reconciliation. It pays tribute to the unknown front-line anti-drug workers and shows the balance of faith and love.