Same Hands and Same Feet

When Chi Jue was seven years old, he picked up a child on a field in the countryside. The child huddled in the grass, his whole body was cold, silent, not looking at anyone, like a cub abandoned by the world. Chi Jue knelt down, tilted his head and looked at him for a long time, then blurted out - "Good boy." From then on, these two words trapped all the tenderness in him for the rest of his long life. --- Jiang Ci was born with high-functioning autism. He doesn't speak, doesn't look into people's eyes, and is afraid of noise and sudden contact. Only eat white food when eating, only step on the cracks of bricks when walking, and the water glass must be placed in a fixed position on the corner of the table. Everyone said he was strange, withdrawn and abnormal. Only Chi Jue doesn't think so. Chi Jue divided the room into half of the room for him, gave him the Ultraman blanket to cover, and chattered nonsense in his ear all day every day, even if he never got a response. He fought for him, took punishments, was criticized in front of the whole school, and never regretted it. He said to Jiang Ci: "You don't need to talk to everyone. You just need to talk to me." --- When he was fourteen years old, Jiang Ci heard a sentence outside the classroom door—— "Chi Jue is really unlucky to be dragged down by such a burden." Late that night, while everyone was asleep, he folded the Ultraman blanket and placed it next to Chi Jue's pillow, and quietly left the home that had hosted him for seven years. He left a note with only eight words on it: "Don't look for me. I'm sorry. Thank you." --- In the next five years, Chi Jue searched for his beloved baby like crazy. Missing person notices were posted at long-distance stations in countless counties, three bicycles were damaged, and the red pushpins on the map were getting denser and denser. Everyone advised him to give up - a bloodless brother, a burden that couldn't speak, a person who chose to leave on his own, what was there to look for? Chi Jue said: "If he doesn't come back, it's not because he doesn't want to come back, it's because he feels he doesn't deserve to come back. So I have to wait for him. One day he will know that he deserves to come back." --- Five years later, Jiangda campus. Under the ginkgo tree, two people meet again by fate. Jiang Ci is no longer the timid and timid child he once was. He taught himself to speak, studied independently, won the gold medal in the provincial mathematics competition, and was recommended to the Computer Science Department of Jiangsu University. He spent five years turning himself into a person who "will not drag anyone down." But he forgot that Chi Jue never needed him to become anyone. Chi Jue only needs him to be Jiang Ci. It was Jiang Ci who was picked up on the ridge of the field when he was seven years old, whom he named with his own hands, and whom he kept close to his heart and called "good boy" for more than ten years. --- Reading Guide 1. Properties of this article Chi Jue (attack) × Jiang Ci (receive) At the same age, Chi Jue is three months older than Jiang Ci. They are both childhood sweethearts and lovers. 2. About the subject matter This is not a sweet campus pet article in the traditional sense. It tells the story of the long growth of an autistic boy, and the story of an ordinary person who spent half his life loving him, waiting for him, and protecting him. The rhythm is slow, the density of details is high, and the emotional lines are delicate and long. If you are willing to calm down and read slowly, it will be suitable for you. 3. About the description of autism Jiang Ci's autism performance refers to the real characteristics of high-functioning autism: sensory sensitivity, stereotyped behavior, avoidance of eye contact, delayed language development, difficulty in interpreting social signals, etc. But he's not a "sick person," he just perceives the world differently than most people. The article does not write about him as someone who needs to be "healed", but about how he learned to express, give back, and love others in his own way through love and companionship. Core attitude: Autism is not a disability, it is another operating system. All special souls deserve blatant favoritism. 4. About "Five Years of Separation" Separation is not abuse, it is the only way to grow. These five years have allowed Jiang Ci to learn to be independent, learn to speak, and learn not to regard himself as a burden; they have also allowed Chi Jue to grow from an impulsive teenager to a calm man. Every step after the reunion is a two-way journey after their respective growth. Their love is not dependence, but side by side. 5. About "microblading" and "healing" There are tiny "knives" in each chapter of this article - not deliberately for the sake of abuse, but growth itself will be accompanied by pain. But after every cut there is healing. Chi Jue's casual thoughts, Jiang Ci's notes, the sweetness of the sweet-scented osmanthus cake, and the golden color of the ginkgo leaves all tell you: Once the pain is over, you will get better. 6. About supporting roles Everyone in this article is a good person. The Chi family's parents are "a top-notch gentle family" and Lu Yuxuan is a "sober and good brother in the world". All the supporting characters are protecting the two protagonists in their own way. There are no bloody misunderstandings, no vicious supporting characters, only love and waiting. 7. The last sentence This is not a story about "rescue". This is a story about "waiting". Chi Jue waited for Jiang Ci for twelve years - seven years of companionship, five years of separation, and a lifetime of staying together. He told Jiang Ci and everyone reading this: You don't need to be good to be worthy of being loved. You are worthy in your own right. Concept: You don't need to change, baby, there will still be people who will love you.