I Miss You Forever

When He Yumeng was fifteen years old, he met a young man wearing a blue mask in a library in Shanghai. They talked about "Les Misérables", fate and choices. The boy said, "Wait for me for seven years." She gave him a stuffed doll, and he made her an agreement that he didn't know the name or appearance. Seven years have passed. After the reunion, Shen Nian was no longer the anonymous young man he was back then. He is a weapon forged by his mother, burdened with old family cases and living on the edge of a knife. The appearance of He Yumeng was the only choice he made on his own. But she doesn't know whether her love is the medicine that makes him "alive" or the crutch that can be removed after he is "cured". When Shen Nian finally learned to stand alone and walked on his own path, He Yumeng was lost. "I'm not needed anymore," she said. This is a story about the difference between being wanted and being loved. It describes the long struggle between two people searching for themselves in each other and almost losing themselves. Spanning ten years, from Shanghai to Beijing to Paris, they went through hurt, misunderstanding, betrayal and collapse. What they finally arrived at was not "you can't live without me", but - after I don't need you at all, I still choose you. Love is not a life-saving straw, it is the root that we are still willing to walk towards each other after we have grown into trees. Intention: Love is not about saving each other, but still choosing each other after each other is complete. This is a novel about the difference between being needed and being loved. Before Shen Nian met He Yumeng, he was a weapon forged by his mother—it had no will of its own, no ability to sense temperature, and was just a sophisticated machine that operated to overturn the case. The appearance of He Yumeng made him feel "alive" for the first time. She unknowingly became the medicine he relied on to breathe, and he once thought that this was love. But the question is: if what you love is the "function" that a person brings to you, will love still exist when this function is no longer needed? Shen Nian worked hard to grow and finally learned to stand alone, breathe alone, and walk his own path. He thought he was finally "worthy" of her, but he didn't know that when he no longer needed her support, she lost the only way to confirm her existence in this relationship - "being needed". She fell into a deeper dilemma: I pulled him out of the ruins, but I was left in the ruins. That's the real weight of this story. It explores the cruelest and most real question in a relationship: Is the person who awakens you destined to bear the price of being forgotten in the darkness after you awaken? The answer to the story is: true love is not about grabbing the other person to prove one's existence, nor is it about using "being needed" to anchor one's own value. It is after two people have grown complete roots, they still choose to grow in the same direction. What Shen Nian finally learned was not "I can't live without her", but "I can live well, but I choose to be with her". Love is not about filling each other's gaps, but about two complete people standing in their respective positions and still reaching out to hold each other.