If you ask 20-year-old Xia Zhi what it feels like to have a crush, she might answer that it's the kind of person who keeps pestering you but doesn't dare to confess.
If you ask 20-year-old An Yichen what it feels like to have a crush, he will tell you.
Secret love is the sorrow of not even having the courage to persist.
It's a wandering without knowing the ending, and it's cautious not to cross the line a little bit.
It was those years when I sat in a corner of the restaurant, slowing down my eating pace just to catch a glimpse of her from a distance, less than two hundred meters away.
After the teacher walked to the side of the classroom, he turned around and his profile gradually became clearer.
In those years, An Yichen didn't know what Xia Zhi liked.
He didn't dare to confess. He wasn't sure if it was due to adolescent hormones. He couldn't selfishly ask Xia Zhi for acceptance.
So during those years, An Yichen clumsily got to know someone quietly.
That person gradually became clear in his mind. He knows that Xia Zhi doesn't like to drink milk tea, knows that Xia Zhi likes to eat sweets, knows that Xia Zhi likes Joker Xue, knows that Xia Zhi likes sweet and sour pork loin, and doesn't like greasy braised pork.
Xia Zhi is too important in An Yichen's heart.
But An Yichen wanted to know more. He wanted to know what Xia Zhi was like in life and whether Xia Zhi would blush when she was angry.
An Yichen told himself that he needed to know more about Xia Zhi.
He wanted to say, Xia Zhi, you are not a perfect fantasy of mine. What I like is you, a specific you. I like your temper, I like your playfulness, and I like everything about you.
It took me seven years to understand your temper, your troubles, and your fragility. I am extremely sure that you are the one I like, and you are not the template for "first love" in any novel.
An Yichen hid his secret love deeply. Seven years later, none of his classmates discovered that An Yichen once liked a girl so much in his heart.
So An Yichen wrote
"I'm sorry that I didn't confess to you because I didn't know if you liked me. If you see this sentence, please don't doubt who I am. I just want to tell you that I like you and always have."
Concept: To love someone is to love everything about them. Love is not about possession, but a firm heartbeat after understanding the other person.