Phototaxis

Introverted liberal arts tyrant × affectionate science genius As the saying goes, moths fly to the flame, but in fact humans are also phototactic animals. 1. When she was seventeen, Shi Xuan fell in love with the school committee member of the next class, Xu Zhaoyi, who was so outstanding and dazzling that everyone in the two classes was familiar with her. It was Xu Zhaoyi who confessed to her, but what Shi Xuan didn't say was that it wasn't just today that this name was engraved in her heart. They are like two mirrors, they are the academic committee member, deputy monitor, and English class representative of their respective classes. One is good at science and the other is good at liberal arts. They are ranked side by side on the honor list. The names mentioned side by side by the teacher and the booing from their classmates seem to tell everyone how compatible they are, and how embarrassed they are when they are separated. 2. When she was studying committee for the first time in high school, Shi Xuan walked to the door of the conference room nervously. Someone tapped her shoulder from behind. She turned her head away. It was winter. The girl behind her was panting slightly because she was running so fast. The air was filled with emotion when she spoke. Blowing up the white mist, the girl smiled and said, "Hey, are you Shi Xuan? Teacher Zhou asked me to come to you. My name is Xu Zhaoyi." Shi Xuan smiled and suddenly felt less uneasy, as if there was someone she could rely on in this huge world. Zhao, bright, Xu Zhaoyi is really like the sun, dazzling, but also far away. Xu Zhaoyi is very good at mathematics, so much so that Teacher Zhou, the common mathematics teacher of both classes, often praises Xu Zhaoyi in Shi Xuan's class. Whenever this happens, Shi Xuan, who is not so good at mathematics, will hang her hair in a daze. 3. We hadn't been together for long, and we hadn't done anything earth-shattering. We just discussed math problems on weekends, and walked around the campus holding an umbrella on rainy days. The rain was pouring, and the surroundings were noisy. But at that moment, there seemed to be an independent world under the umbrella. Shi Xuan could only hear her own heartbeat. She didn't dare to look up at Xu Zhaoyi, and could only pray silently, slow down, slow down. The journey we walked together was not long, but Shi Xuan always felt that they had been side by side for a long time. Later, after the breakup, Shi Xuan improved her math scores and became what others called a math genius. She was even number one in grade, two points higher than Xu Zhaoyi. Xu Zhaoyi, am I good enough to make you fall in love with me? 4. Shi Xuan loved drinking jasmine tea. She didn't know from which day she discovered that Xu Zhaoyi, who hardly drank drinks, also started drinking jasmine tea. Occasionally, when she goes to the cafeteria to eat and sees the other person holding a bottle of jasmine tea that is the same as hers, Shi Xuan can't help but smile, as if it is a silent code that only the two of them understand. During that time, Shi Xuan would definitely receive a message from Xu Zhaoyi every Saturday night. Sometimes it was to ask a difficult math question, sometimes it was to ask her how many points she had scored in the practice test this week, and sometimes it was to ask about her homework. Xu Zhaoyi wouldn't say he liked her, and neither would Shi Xuan. 5. Occasionally, Shi Xuan would feel bored with this relationship. They were friends, and they could discuss math problems together, say hello in the office, and chat about insignificant topics. However, occasionally for a few moments, maybe the two hearts got too close, and she felt that the two of them were lovers again. But when a friend asked, Xu Zhaoyi began to avoid suspicion again. Shi Xuan felt like a lover, a boring pastime and a candidate for loneliness. She should draw a clear line when she saw the light. She watched Xu Zhaoyi fall in love and break up again and again, and the ambiguity with her friends ended. But in the end Xu Zhaoyi would come back to her, and they would continue to talk about what friends should talk about. Shi Xuan felt really tired. That was the first time she lost her temper with Xu Zhaoyi, and it was also the first time they quarreled. She cried. She really felt that she was a lunatic with no identity, and she wanted to stay with Xu Zhaoyi. She is very proud, so she will not bow to anyone, but Xu Zhaoyi is also very proud, and Xu Zhaoyi will not bow to anyone. "I hate you, Xu Zhaoyi, you will be punished..." She said a lot of hurtful words that day, but Xu Zhaoyi didn't reply. After sending the message, she blocked Xu Zhaoyi. 6. After the college entrance examination, Shi Xuan learned from her friends that Xu Zhaoyi's score was two points lower than hers. Xu Zhaoyi enrolled in a university in the north, and she planned to stay in the south. After pulling for so long, each time it felt like it was going to end, but every time it couldn't be broken, Shi Xuan felt that this time they were really over. It turns out that we are really similar, the same pride and stubbornness, the same youthfulness and ignorance, the same inability to deal with a relationship, and the same character background. Therefore, when I see you, I seem to see another myself. My own shortcomings are infinitely magnified, and the advantages are also revealed. I still fall in love with you, and even more with myself. Xu Zhaoyi, we are rivals, old lovers, friends, confidants, or old friends. Concept: Two weak souls chasing their true selves