The autumn of 2021 was the autumn when I met her.
In her sophomore year of high school, the school organized a rehearsal for Dream of Red Mansions, and she was recommended by her classmates to play the role of Xue Baochai. During the rehearsal, I looked at her, her lips were red and her teeth were white, and she could easily attract attention just by standing there. Amidst the commotion, I mustered up the courage to go back to Jia Baoyu. With trembling hands, I lifted a corner of her hijab and cowardly hid away. I could clearly feel how fast my heart was beating. At this moment, it was only beating for one person.
In the winter of the second semester of my senior year of high school, she gently hugged my waist and rested her chin on my shoulder. The words in her mouth made me feel as cold as this winter: "I'm sorry, I want to live a normal life."
"Well..."
What qualifications do I have to keep her? I am not a man and cannot give her a so-called normal life.
But, is this the first time you know that I am a girl? !
After that, we were like two intersecting lines. Even if we intersected in the end, we gradually drifted apart, leaving only "living corpses" in each other's lists.
I would often type on the keyboard at night, deleting, modifying, and modifying, but I didn't have the courage to tell her that she wanted a normal life, so why should I hold on to her?
Until many years later, the person I deliberately suppressed told me the news of her engagement. How can I describe my mood at that time? It was complicated and uncomfortable, and the memories that had been dusted for many years came to my mind one by one.
In the fall, she told me her name.
In winter, she said she wanted to go to Nanjing with me to see the phoenix trees.
In the spring, she told me that she liked me.
In summer, we looked at each other and smiled on the tree-lined avenue, telling the story of our ignorant love in our youth.
I entrusted the gift to a classmate and handed it over to her, but I still didn't have the courage to see her again.
On the day of the wedding, I went to Wutong Road in Nanjing alone. It was winter. I raised my hands and threw the two rings over my head, and they disappeared with the words "I love you".
Purpose: Correctly treat the hazy emotions of adolescence