This is a true daily diary of a patient with depression, a complete record of the ups and downs of emotions throughout the day, from opening your eyes in the morning to insomnia late at night.
I am dragged awake by a sense of powerlessness in the morning, unable to muster any energy to deal with the trivial life; I repeatedly fall into self-denial and empty numbness during the day, and a careless word from others can set off a raging collapse in my heart; occasionally I catch a faint trace of tenderness for a short time, and then fall into endless darkness; I have insomnia and repeated internal conflict late at night, digesting the torment of no empathy alone.
There is no intense and extreme catharsis in the article, but a straightforward description of the pain hidden in the eyes of ordinary people: constant fatigue, self-loathing, social fear, loss of interest in everything, and the repeated desire to survive and world-weariness.
Write down all the inner words that are difficult to confide to outsiders, record every scar of emotional ups and downs, write it to people who are also trapped in the emotional quagmire, and also write it to yourself who is struggling alone. It is a silent, broken and true self-monologue on the road to healing.
Purpose: to truly record the daily emotions of patients with depression, show the unknown inner suffering of depressed people, provide empathy and comfort to similar readers, face up to emotional illness, and gently accept all their negative moods.