It is a youth novel about seventeen years old, anxiety and redemption. In that spring when catkins were flying, Shen Qingyan, who suffered from anxiety, met Qi Ye, who was as hot as the sun - when he ran, even the light on the playground swayed for him. Starting from a smile when borrowing the road, people from the two worlds gradually got closer: he squatted next to her and helped her pull weeds, saying, "Only when the mountains and rivers are clear can the flowers bloom"; she hid the small iron box deep in the drawer, trying to believe that life can really take root again. But some light just passes by the ruins, letting you see clearly how desolate you are. When hope and despair grow at the same time, when there is only a thin line between redemption and collapse, the spring when she is seventeen will eventually become a season that she will never forget in her life. The novel uses delicate and restrained writing to describe the entire process of a girl struggling to reach out her hand in the darkness and trying to touch the light - the pain, hesitation, and those moments of "maybe it really can be done."
Intention: Some lights are not meant to be embraced, they just pass by your ruins and let you see clearly how desolate you are. But seeing the desolation itself is the beginning. In the spring of seventeen years old, the catkins will not stop, and the heartbeat will not stop, and on a sunny morning, you finally close the door of the iron box hidden deep in the drawer, turn around and walk out - even if you don't know what is ahead, even if "maybe" what follows may still be falling, but the very act of turning around is meaningful. Salvation never comes from the light of others, but from your willingness to finally try to bloom a flower on your own ruins.