In the first year that Ruan Yu and Xie Lanting met, everyone thought they would be together.
He would take a two-hour subway ride halfway across the city to have a meal with her. He would jump twice at the windy bus stop before taking off his coat and handing it to her. He would secretly take pictures of her tying her hair and create a folder called "Manman" on his phone - the ones in the auditorium, the study room, the ones standing in the rain in a goose-yellow skirt, and the ones watching koi fish by the water in Suzhou. Every picture is of her. Each one is collected. Each one has never seen the light of day.
The taxi driver said: Your girlfriend is so good-looking, so many people chase her out of society. He didn't deny it. He said "Yeah".
That was the closest she got to being "together."
Not long after, he met a senior student in an elective course that she did not choose. He said that person was Bai Yueguang, "There is no better girl than her in the whole school."
Ruan Yu helped him with advice. Help him chase other people's cakes. 520 I mustered up the courage to ask him for supper that night - he said it was not very convenient today.
Later she saw the folder on his phone. I saw candid photos taken more than 2,000 days ago and all the sunsets in Suzhou. She handed the phone back to him without asking a word. Then he said: Don't pretend to be stupid. Xie Landing is a smart person.
He was silent.
She finally understood one thing - it wasn't that he didn't like her. He didn't dare to admit it.
But she didn't want to wait any longer. When something expires, it expires. After leaving the cinnabar mole for a long time, it is just a small patch of red on the collar that cannot be washed away.
Intention: Seeking from the outside but not getting it, seeking from the inside for endless survival.
