"I'll Leave at Dawn"

Seventeen-year-old Lin Chi confessed her love to someone on a snowy night, and the reply she received was "think about it". The man's name was Chen Tingxue, and he got back together with his ex. Lin Chi waited for twelve days. Waiting for a blank check with "another day" written all over it, waiting for "Let's talk about it" after another. She wrote "If you don't come, I'll find someone else" on a piece of paper and handed it over, but the other person didn't reply. Later she really found someone else. Song Wenzhi sat on the steps at the door of the dormitory building, raised his face and said, "Then I take it seriously." She knew that she was an alternative, a product of anger, the other person in the word "other". But she reached out her hand anyway. During that month, some people handed out hot milk, some sat on the sidelines until dark, and some asked under the lamppost, "Who do you think we are now?" Lin Chi started to really like her - in that hug downstairs in the dormitory, Song Wenzhi grabbed the knuckles on the waist of her down jacket until they turned white and said, "You are so warm." Lin Chi said "yes" and said he would sit under the tree and not leave. But there is not just one "star". Lin Chi is the "star" that friends have called for many years, and is also the note that Chen Tingxue gave to her ex. The dyslexic man could never read more than three lines of text, but he read a note in his drawer countless times. She thought she still had time. After this winter, waiting for people to look back, waiting for a reply that is too late to say. No one has time. This is the winter for three people. One is waiting, one is retreating, and the other is looking back in the distance. At the end, the snow stopped, the lights went out, and someone left the last letter to the person who had never read an article in its entirety. "I'll Leave at Daybreak" is about missing, about temperature, and about the light extinguished before dawn. Intent: This book is about a person whose "waiting" is seen too late. Lin Chi waited, waited for Chen Tingxue to turn around, and waited for a complete sentence. When she waited, she didn't know that "waiting" itself was an exhausting thing. And Chen Tingxue, the person who could never finish reading a page of a book, finally read it word by word while holding a suicide note. When she saw him, he was no longer there. Song Wenzhi is not the third corner of the love triangle. She was the one who reached out to help Lin Chi when he was about to fall, and then stepped away after helping her. She knew there was a place in Lin Chi's heart that she couldn't go to, but she went anyway. Her reason for quitting and Lin Chi's reason for waiting were the same: even though she knew there was no road ahead, she still walked through it. At the heart of this book is the space between seeing and not being able to. It was already empty when those who were waiting were seen, and it was already dispersed when those who saw it arrived. The farthest distance between people is not lack of love, but a period of time in between that cannot be turned back. "I've waited for you." This sentence is not a confession, but an ending. A more complete ending than a breakup - you finally see me, but my "wait" has passed its shelf life.