You Are My Total Dependence

Ming Zhounuan is the top student in Bingshan in his grade, and his life creed is to be alone. Ren Lin is the last one in the school and is best at playing games. Everyone said that they were two parallel lines that would never intersect, until that evening, Ming Zhounuan encountered his most unbearable vulnerability on the rooftop. The flamboyant young man huddled in the corner, holding the corner of her clothes with red eyes, his voice trembling as he said, "Don't leave." It turns out that all his cynicism was just protective. And all her coldness and alienation are armor. He had been in the darkness for so long that he thought he could only rely on disguised noise to fight against loneliness in his life. She also thought that the world was inherently cold and there was no one to rely on except herself. It wasn't until that dusk that a trembling "Don't go" and a quiet "I'm here" made the two boys and girls accustomed to disguise finally dare to take off all their guard. When the secret is revealed, they become each other's only kind in the world. I'll help you get rid of the nightmare, and you'll give me a home. This is a two-way healing, a mutual recognition of lonely souls. It turns out that true dependence is that once you come, you never leave. If it's raining heavily in this world, then—— You are all I rely on Purpose: 1. About "disguise" and "truth" We live in this world, more or less wearing masks. Ren Lin used cynicism to cover up his childhood trauma, and Ming Zhounuan used coldness and alienation to wrap up the fear of being abandoned. They are the only ones who can see through each other's disguise, because they are truly the same kind and can recognize the same desolation in each other's eyes at a glance. What the story wants to say is: when a person dares to show his most vulnerable vulnerability in front of you, that is where true trust begins. 2. Regarding "dependence", it is not weakness, but courage. The book is called "You Are All My Dependence". In this era of advocating independence and self-reliance, "dependence" seems to have become a word that is ashamed to be spoken. But what the story wants to explore is: It may take more courage to dare to admit "I need you" than to pretend "I can do it alone." Ren Lin's "Don't go" and Ming Zhounuan's "I'm here" are essentially handing over one's softest weakness to another person. And the real redemption happens precisely in this moment of surrender. 3. About the redemption of "same frequency resonance" This is not a story of one party saving the other party, but a two-way healing. Ming Zhounuan pulled Ren Lin out of the darkness, and Ren Lin also let Ming Zhounuan know for the first time that someone in this world would treat her as everything. They are each other's mirrors, seeing in each other their own imperfections but still longing to be loved. Salvation is never a one-sided charity, but two people meeting at the edge of the abyss and walking together to a place with light. 4. About campus as the "last pure land" The story takes place on campus, a special place between family and society. For Ren Lin and Ming Zhounuan, their original families have left them bruised and bruised, and the campus is both an escape and a prison. But it was in this seemingly small world that they completed their initial self-reconstruction. The meaning of campus is: it allows you to make mistakes, it allows you to be broken, and it also allows you to put yourself back together bit by bit in the company of another person. 5. Redefining "home" Both Ren Lin and Ming Zhounuan were once "homeless" - one was trapped in a cold mansion, and the other had no place to return to. They found a sense of "home" in each other. This is not a roof in the physical sense, but a person's embrace, a "I am", a place where you know the light will always be on for you. What the story wants to convey is: home is not given by blood, but is chosen and created by yourself. --- The core idea can be summarized in one sentence: In this world of heavy rain, we all need someone who can take off all pretense with peace of mind. Real dependence is not kidnapping, but - I can be my truest self in front of you; and you tell me that I am worthy of being loved.