The first half of Lin Zhixia's life was one storm after another with no empathy.
Trapped in a patriarchal family and a snobbish elementary school teacher during her childhood, she has low self-esteem and yet needs to be strong. Her failure to get promoted to junior high school left her with a life-long obsession of refusing to admit defeat. Her three years in high school were her short-lived warmth in the world. Her mentor Wen Qinghe gave her life creed. Her best friend Su Wan and her two-way redemption. Gu Yan, a clean boy, hid his desire to restrain himself. He studied hard in a cold window in exchange for admission to 211 colleges. She thought her suffering would end there.
An encounter during her junior year dragged her into an emotional purgatory called Chen Yu. Paranoid PUA, ambiguous relationships, and physical violence drained her of all her vitality. Her senior postgraduate entrance exams failed, and she hit rock bottom. She lived alone in a rented house with a monthly salary of 1,000 yuan, experiencing all the abjection in the world.
She resigned from World War II to study in graduate school, and went to the south to recover alone. However, after returning home, she was oppressed in the workplace and reunited with old friends, and the inner demons she had accumulated for many years completely exploded. She reviewed all the hurts, let go of her unwillingness and resentment, and finally understood: all the wind and rain are not punishment, but pages of a book used to understand herself.
After getting rid of internal friction and keeping the bottom line of gentleness, she met Shen Jiashu, who was emotionally stable and accepted her entire past. After half a lifetime of ups and downs, the dust has settled. The abyss we fell into and the long nights we endured eventually turned into a road paving the way to the rainbow. Life doesn't have to be smooth sailing. If you read carefully, there will be sunshine in the end.
Purpose: 1. Suffering is not a punishment in life, but a necessary process to understand oneself and complete self-salvation. All hard work will accumulate into inner confidence; 2. Kindness must be sharp and gentle must have a bottom line. Compromising and pleasing without a bottom line will only continue to consume oneself; 3. True perfection does not rely on redemption from others, self-consistency, self-healing, and self-reliance are the lifelong destination; 4. Life is full of ups and downs, and the highs and lows are not the end. Stick to your heart and never give up, and you will eventually see the light of day; 5. Original trauma, misplaced feelings, and worldly oppression cannot define a person's life. People have all the power to reshape themselves and rewrite the rest of their lives.
