She Keeps the World in Black and White, but Allows Me to Be Covered in Mud

I have spent more than ten years playing the role of an impeccable gentle skin. When I accidentally pushed away my violent father, my mother took all the blame for me and was imprisoned. From then on, I deliberately imitated her tolerant and kind appearance, suppressed all the sharpness, guilt and darkness in my heart, and became a high school student who is soft-hearted and kind in the eyes of everyone, and who is always considerate of the weak. But pretending day after day, I have never been truly happy. My best friend Lin Xiaoxing has been bullied on campus all year round. I was her only support, but I was unable to protect her because I was absent from the school to help organize files. The desperate girl committed suicide without being tortured. Her mother had no way to appeal, and her whole life was reduced to an empty shell. She asked me over and over again about the whereabouts of the perpetrator. I couldn't bear to see her completely swallowed up by the pain, so I quietly separated the two girls who were working together to do evil, creating a gap where she was alone, and followed her desire to give clues. I only wanted to let the wicked taste the feeling of being alone and helpless. I never thought that a belated justice in a desperate situation would eventually lead to the destruction of the family and the death of the family. From then on, I tried my best to be kind to everyone who was in deep suffering. I was not born with compassion, but I just spent the rest of my life making up for my irreparable regrets. Two heavy pasts are rotten in my heart. I bear all the gray worries alone, thinking that I will be trapped in the abyss alone forever in this life. Until Gu Yanxi appeared. She is a criminal police officer who abides by the law. She is cold and awe-inspiring. She holds a file in her hand to distinguish right from wrong in the world. She can keenly detect all the flaws behind two perfect "accidents". She peeled off my gentle disguise layer by layer, and saw through the brokenness, selfishness, and heavy original sin that no one knew was hidden under the skin. The rules of the law are clear, and there is no room for lynching or transgression. In the face of stacked tragedies and endless regrets, she could not harshly blame me, who was full of softness. When the college entrance examination came to an end, I took her to her mother's cemetery, took off all disguises, and revealed all the light and mud in her half-life. I was already prepared to be scrutinized and alienated, but she reached out and hugged me firmly with all my unhappiness. The world only sees my gentleness and compassion for all sentient beings. Only Gu Yanxi is willing to cross the line between black and white and accept the mud that cannot be washed away from me. She abides by the laws of the world, but only for me she lets go of all her coldness; I carry the gentleness of midsummer through all living beings, and in the end she is the only one who can help me get out of the abyss where I have been imprisoned alone for many years. The evening wind blew the autumn leaves and fell between us. The coldness of the detective gave way to the gentleness of the midsummer of the young man. In the gap between black and white, a restrained and hot two-way preference was born. Purpose: The law distinguishes black and white, and love contains the mud of half a lifetime.