The Stars Look Up

Jiang Yang behaves casually and is always gentle and gentle in his treatment of others. No one can see through this relaxation that there is a knot of heart that has been difficult to resolve for many years. When she was young and unacquainted with the world, she devoted herself to Gu Wanfeng, a man with flawless character and clear sense. After the love affair was exposed, her family, which has a strong sense of family status, continued to put pressure on her. She was still immature and only knew how to stick to each other. Gu Wanfeng didn't want to see her antagonize her loved ones for a long time and suffer hardships, so he chose to break up decently and peacefully after weighing several times. This separation without resentment made Jiang Yang blame it on himself for a long time because he was too weak and unable to protect the people he cherished, and the regret took root in his heart. In the following years, Jiang Yang continued to hone himself, immersing himself in busyness, as if being busy enough would free him from the pain of the past.        On the autumn afternoon of the day I transferred to another school, Lin Fanxing, a Chinese teacher beside the empty playground, came into view. While Jiang Yang covets the only tolerance and warmth, he is also anxious all day long, fearing that his identity as a teacher and student and worldly outlook will force him to make the same choice as his old friend. In front of others, she is casual and magnanimous, adhering to her duties as a student, but when she is alone, she is worried about gains and losses, always wanting to give everything she has to achieve perfection. The tone of the whole text is restrained and forbearing, starting from the first sight of autumn, and describing the struggle hidden under the free and easy appearance. After the separation, Jiang Yang spent a long time alone, and finally slowly understood that the separation was not entirely his fault, and distinguished the boundary between forced binding and sincere cherishment, lost his paranoid obsession, and learned to digest the desolation in his heart alone. She still looks free and open on the outside, but there is more peace in her heart that coexists with regrets. For the rest of her life with no one to accompany her, she slowly reconciles with her young, cowardly, unfulfilling self. Purpose: To analyze the long-lasting psychological shackles left by the estrangement between reality in youth, to show the paranoia and uneasiness caused by trauma, to describe the restrained bond between teachers and students on campus, to explore the difference between possessive bondage and sincere cherishment, and to tell the process of people's reconciliation with past regrets and self-healing and growth.