On the night of his eighteenth birthday, Lu Xingmian got himself half drunk and had the courage to tell his brother what he had hidden in his heart for ten years.
"Brother, I like you. It's not like a younger brother likes an elder brother."
Lu Chenzhou was silent for a long time, so long that Lu Xingmian thought he was thinking about it. Then he heard two words, light and airy, but they shattered his world into pieces.
"Disgusting."
Lu Xingmian disappeared for three whole years.
Three years later, Lu Chenzhou found him in a clinic in a small town. His younger brother had a high fever of 40 degrees. He was so thin that he was reduced to a handful of bones and covered in scars. He kept calling "brother" while in a coma.
The doctor said that those scars include knife wounds, burns, and cigarette butt burns. Some of them have proliferated, and some are still inflamed. There were more injuries on his body than he had ever seen as a doctor for thirty years.
Lu Chenzhou knelt beside the hospital bed, holding the hand with clear joints, and cried in front of others for the first time.
"Xingmian, I'm here. Brother is here."
Lu Xingmian opened her eyes, and the moment she saw him, there was no surprise or resentment in her eyes, only a humble and cautious expectation that broke Lu Chenzhou's heart.
"Brother, do you still think I'm disgusting?"
Lu Chenzhou leaned down and kissed the most hideous scar on his arm.
"Not disgusting."
"Never."
"It's me who is disgusting. I have been disgusted for ten years - I love you to the point of madness, but for the so-called 'protection', I personally pushed you into hell."
This is a story about escape and search, destruction and redemption.
The bitter fruits of sowing take a lifetime to taste. But if it is you who is hidden in the bitter fruit, then I will be happy with all the suffering.
Intention: I thought it was poison that penetrated the intestines, but I found out after I cut it open——
What grows inside is you.
