[Sincerity, Warm Yang Attack × Gentleness, Brokenness, Depression and Feeling]
[Reality to small county town BE｜Original family shackles｜Rumor killing bureau｜No redemption·Everyone is upset]
[The double names come from Tao Yuanming's poems]
Everyone thought that they would survive their senior year of high school and rush to the same future.
——
Summer in the small county town is long and boring.
Xu Zhaochuan is everyone's favorite, warm and dazzling little sun, lively, magnanimous, and always bright.
Wen Yunxiu, on the other hand, is quiet, docile, and tolerant, and is praised by everyone as a good and sensible child.
No one believed that these two completely different teenagers would quietly fall in love between the desks.
They shared a pair of headphones and walked along the same evening breeze river embankment.
Secretly write on the note that the future will be long, and make a promise sincerely:
When the college entrance examination is over, they will escape together and leave this lonely city that traps them.
Those days were the only sweetness that Wen Yunxiu dared to covet in his short life.
He relied on Xu Zhaochuan's light to survive year after year, secretly treating him as his salvation.
He thought that if the sun was there, the moon would not be dark.
——
Killings in small counties never use knives, mouths, eyes, and rules.
The moment the love affair is exposed, tenderness becomes a crime and sincerity becomes a shame.
The mother's broken confinement, the father's furious rebuke, the endless gossip from the neighbors, and the school's trivial guidance all formed an airtight cage.
The braver Xu Zhaochuan became in protecting him, the tighter the shackles of the outside world tightened.
He desperately stretched out his hands to pull him ashore,
Little did he know that he was the last straw that broke Wen Yunxiu's mind.
Everyone only saw their ridiculous puppy love.
No one saw his collapse every night, no one saw his festering emotions, no one saw his despair day after day, gritting his teeth and holding on.
——
In the late summer afternoon, the rooftop is empty and the wind is blowing.
Desperate, Wen Yunxiu called the psychological assistance hotline.
When the whole world accuses him of being ignorant, willful and letting everyone down,
He asked softly:
"Sister, do you have a partner?"
The moment I received a gentle reply,
With the only tenderness in his life, he gently confessed:
"I have a boyfriend too.
His eyes are beautiful.
He is the sun in the sky, and I am the moon who lives by his dim light. "
——
This is the love that he has hidden all his life and never expressed it to his mouth.
It was also the last words he left in this world.
There is no turning back on the rooftop.
Xu Zhaochuan rushed through the whole old street like crazy,
The wind howled, the sirens tore through the evening breeze, and the young man's running gasps were all lost in despair.
Just a few seconds and a lifetime.
Later, the sky still illuminated the mountains and rivers, and the rivers continued to flow.
Just from now on,
There is no more mountains and clouds in the world,
The moon, which relied on light to survive, died forever in the suffocating midsummer.
——He came with the warm sun, but in the end he could not keep his moon.
[Adapted from the author's own experience]
Intention: Loving you is the happiest and most painful thing in the world
