When I looked back, I saw it was all just noise. But we had our fun. And we were loud enough to believe it.
First person memoir. A story of a legend reborn from the ashes. The story of a prodigal son returning home. A story about loss, about exile, about self, about music, about love and salvation.
For George,
Still Listening.
Mission: Ode to The Meds
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Big sister, my mood has been going back and forth these days, and I can't resist the urge to confess to you. Don't take it off, after all, who can be calm after falling in love with an lpl? So what does it matter if Meds has more flesh and blood than me? What can be done? ? ? You often put the word "destiny" on your lips. I always felt that fate was illusory. Recently, I have experienced lpl's life trajectory through your story. I am extremely grateful for the gift of fate. I am lucky enough to meet you in the vast sea of people and thousands of stories. However, I feel extremely sorry for the harshness and cruelty of fate, which made her wander all the way and endured too much suffering. It's a pity that I couldn't catch up with her when she was at her most energetic, and couldn't firmly become a fan who protected her when she was shining brightly...
When we are young, we are always persistently chasing those mirror images, unconsciously falling in love with a carefully crafted and flawless character, and projecting all our emotions on this perfect "virtual character". However, later on, fame and fortune, true and false, gains and losses, made me tired and confused. I kept thinking about the real meaning behind it. Is it worth it? Perhaps from a secular perspective, there is no standard answer to all this. I can't actually tell you the exact moment when my emotions were completely affected by lpl. In her originally silent and desolate heart, she ignited a secret and fiery spark... Perhaps it was her bravery in shielding Isa from the knife and fearing that her blood would stain him; perhaps it was the scene of her and George hugging each other and kissing each other deeply on the stage that attracted much attention; perhaps it was the countless moments when she missed her father, crying in loneliness and helplessness; perhaps it was the scene where she cried lonely and helplessly while missing her father; I felt sorry that she was tortured by drugs and drank poison to quench her thirst; perhaps it was because of the kindness in her bones that she always steadfastly sympathized with women when Elena was at her most vulnerable... After falling in love countless times, I finally understood that what I loved was not a cold fictional plot character. She lived in words and stories, but had a more vivid and hot soul than many people. Her background is given by you. Maybe what I fell in love with is your soul. You used this character to write out all the truth, magnanimity, greed, obsession and desire. You have broken out of the shackles of "fiction" and you are a real, passionate, flesh-and-blood ordinary person who is desperately trying to save himself in the torrent of fate. She has a bad nature, is paranoid and affectionate, sensitive and stubborn, occasionally arrogant and arrogant, with sharp edges. She always consumes and hurts herself in an almost self-destructive way, and inadvertently burns the people around her who cherish her and love her deeply. But I still don't want to judge her with such cold words as "impaired personality". She is just a deeply lost child. After so many years, she is just looking for herself and her spiritual home. Big sister, thank you for appearing, thank you for writing this story. I have been suffering from longing and aftertaste for countless nights. Your words, your talents, and everything about you make me painful and sweet. As you said, maybe we only met briefly, and we will eventually return to our original life tracks. I think I will treasure this heartbeat that spans words forever... I love you, big sister😙 I hope you are all well in a foreign country❤❤❤
From now on, all the glory of my life, all the legends of singing, and all the scenery in my eyes will be the most humble love I offer to you. [Crying] [Crying] That's a chestnut... I picked you up and I have been silently paying for you and taking responsibility for you. I was hurt by you without saying a word and yet I was proud and used all my chestnuts to love you... Your rose... Lu, I hurt him all my life and finally knew how to bow my head for him. . [Crying] [crying]
Because of your name, there is very little mention of meds, but it has aroused more thoughts and curiosity in me. I really want to get into this story of the prodigal son turning back! ! ! The preface of Chapter 2 requires you to read and recite the entire text thoroughly. Every word is worth recalling over and over again, and each sentence is worthy of being praised! Teacher Blair's writing style is so awesome! ! ! Perhaps in Just Noise we can get a glimpse of Meds' past and present life, and Li Zi's complete inner world... This is also Luna's most restrained, passionate and unique love in her life, look forward to it! ! ! 12
Will the conference open a new chapter dedicated to meds [Let me be healthy] I'm looking forward to it
Big sister, my mood has been going back and forth these days, and I can't resist the urge to confess to you. Don't take it off, after all, who can be calm after falling in love with an lpl? So what does it matter if Meds has more flesh and blood than me? What can be done? ? ? You often put the word "destiny" on your lips. I always felt that fate was illusory. Recently, I have experienced lpl's life trajectory through your story. I am extremely grateful for the gift of fate. I am lucky enough to meet you in the vast sea of people and thousands of stories. However, I feel extremely sorry for the harshness and cruelty of fate, which made her wander all the way and endured too much suffering. It's a pity that I couldn't catch up with her when she was at her most energetic, and couldn't firmly become a fan who protected her when she was shining brightly... When we are young, we are always persistently chasing those mirror images, unconsciously falling in love with a carefully crafted and flawless character, and projecting all our emotions on this perfect "virtual character". However, later on, fame and fortune, true and false, gains and losses, made me tired and confused. I kept thinking about the real meaning behind it. Is it worth it? Perhaps from a secular perspective, there is no standard answer to all this. I can't actually tell you the exact moment when my emotions were completely affected by lpl. In her originally silent and desolate heart, she ignited a secret and fiery spark... Perhaps it was her bravery in shielding Isa from the knife and fearing that her blood would stain him; perhaps it was the scene of her and George hugging each other and kissing each other deeply on the stage that attracted much attention; perhaps it was the countless moments when she missed her father, crying in loneliness and helplessness; perhaps it was the scene where she cried lonely and helplessly while missing her father; I felt sorry that she was tortured by drugs and drank poison to quench her thirst; perhaps it was because of the kindness in her bones that she always steadfastly sympathized with women when Elena was at her most vulnerable... After falling in love countless times, I finally understood that what I loved was not a cold fictional plot character. She lived in words and stories, but had a more vivid and hot soul than many people. Her background is given by you. Maybe what I fell in love with is your soul. You used this character to write out all the truth, magnanimity, greed, obsession and desire. You have broken out of the shackles of "fiction" and you are a real, passionate, flesh-and-blood ordinary person who is desperately trying to save himself in the torrent of fate. She has a bad nature, is paranoid and affectionate, sensitive and stubborn, occasionally arrogant and arrogant, with sharp edges. She always consumes and hurts herself in an almost self-destructive way, and inadvertently burns the people around her who cherish her and love her deeply. But I still don't want to judge her with such cold words as "impaired personality". She is just a deeply lost child. After so many years, she is just looking for herself and her spiritual home. Big sister, thank you for appearing, thank you for writing this story. I have been suffering from longing and aftertaste for countless nights. Your words, your talents, and everything about you make me painful and sweet. As you said, maybe we only met briefly, and we will eventually return to our original life tracks. I think I will treasure this heartbeat that spans words forever... I love you, big sister😙 I hope you are all well in a foreign country❤❤❤
From now on, all the glory of my life, all the legends of singing, and all the scenery in my eyes will be the most humble love I offer to you. [Crying] [Crying] That's a chestnut... I picked you up and I have been silently paying for you and taking responsibility for you. I was hurt by you without saying a word and yet I was proud and used all my chestnuts to love you... Your rose... Lu, I hurt him all my life and finally knew how to bow my head for him. . [Crying] [crying]
Because of your name, there is very little mention of meds, but it has aroused more thoughts and curiosity in me. I really want to get into this story of the prodigal son turning back! ! ! The preface of Chapter 2 requires you to read and recite the entire text thoroughly. Every word is worth recalling over and over again, and each sentence is worthy of being praised! Teacher Blair's writing style is so awesome! ! ! Perhaps in Just Noise we can get a glimpse of Meds' past and present life, and Li Zi's complete inner world... This is also Luna's most restrained, passionate and unique love in her life, look forward to it! ! ! 12
Will the conference open a new chapter dedicated to meds [Let me be healthy] I'm looking forward to it