When he was five years old, Gu Ji was abducted into a dark room. She was rescued more than two months later, but her body and memory were left with indelible scars. She learned not to be afraid in the dark, learned to cry silently, and learned to remember everything - the scar on the trafficker's right hand, the number of iron bars in the room, and the nightmarish details. When she was twelve years old, she "floated" out of her body for the first time, suspended under the ceiling, and looked at herself curled up on the bed crying. That was the beginning of personality dissociation - in order to protect her, her brain split into a bystander, watching her life coldly. Twenty years later, she found the woman's name: Lin Xiuzhi. In order to take revenge, she carefully planned to get close to Lin Xiuzhi's son Zhou Qiyue, but she did not expect that she would fall in love with him. When love and hatred were entangled, when it was difficult to distinguish between use and sincerity, she finally sent Lin Xiuzhi to court, but found that she had not been relieved. That scar was not only on the trafficker's hands, but also engraved in her brain. This is a novel about trauma, dissociation, revenge and self-reconciliation. The two "me's" - one experiencing everything, the other observing everything - eventually move towards integration in the long process of healing. Not all scars will fade away, but people can learn to walk with them.
Purpose: After trauma, how people can finally coexist with pain and move toward integration by facing hatred and self-division.