Lavender Is Speechless, Half a Green Plum Was Paid by Mistake

Adapted from true memories, a two-way secret love is so extreme that it's hard to let go. The wind of the Northeast farm blew through twenty-two years of youth. Starting from a glove and a ruler given to her by his deskmate in elementary school, he hid his secret love for twelve years: in junior high school, he walked all the way around Lilac Road just to accompany her to school. During winter and summer vacations, he would sit at home all afternoon without daring to say a word. Even his confessions were secretly tucked into his physics textbook. His confession in his senior year of high school was filled with a three-page reprimand letter, and he thought it was a complete rejection; he kept the sentence in his graduation notebook, "When I am able to bear it, I will make you a promise" for four years, and never dared to ask whether it was true or false. In college, he memorized her home phone number but didn't dare to dial it. He lingered in front of her house and didn't dare to open the door. She gathered enough courage to rush to his city, but met an accident halfway, and even in the most dangerous situation, she couldn't wait for news from him. An impulsive "I have a girlfriend" completely misses the rest of my life. They met in a photo studio where they got married on the same day. After meeting again more than ten years later, he finally understood from her old poems that the flower language of lavender is waiting for love. She waited for him for twelve years, he was timid for twelve years, missed half of his life, and finally became a cinnabar mole on his heart. Purpose: 1. Core Purpose: Two-way timidity creates a half-life of misses, unraveling the true background of young people who are frustrated and frustrated. The story is from Lu Yu's perspective spanning more than 20 years, recording a twelve-year two-way secret love that started on the lilac dirt road in the northeastern farm and ended in their respective marriages. The first level of the core concept directly points to the lifelong regret caused by the natural cowardice and passive character of young people. The male and female protagonists, Lu Yu and Xu Xi, have equally deep feelings for each other, but are firmly trapped by their respective weaknesses: Lu Yu is introverted and clumsy, hiding all his love in waiting, letters, and secretly treasured old things, and never dares to take the initiative; Xu Xi is sensitive and afraid of rumors, and has weak ability to withstand pressure. When faced with feelings, he will only avoid and wait, and will not take the initiative to express his grievances and expectations. The two of them were clearly in love with each other, but neither one of them dared to take the initiative. Numerous times at which reconciliation and agreement could have been fulfilled were passed by due to silence, avoidance, and impulsiveness, confirming a cruel truth: liking is not enough to overcome timidity, and silent love will only lead to long-term missing. It is different from ordinary youth pain literature that deliberately creates bloody conflicts. The regrets in this article are all based on the real character shortcomings of ordinary people and the limitations of the era. There is no villain or fierce bloody conflict. The estrangement comes from the pressure of entering the third year of high school, distance, small town gossip atmosphere, and youth's lack of communication. It is close to the real growth situation of grassroots farm teenagers in the 1980s and 1990s. The landing of "It's hard to calm down" is not deliberately sensational, but a true epitome of the youthful youth of a generation. 2. Double image comparison: lilac and lavender, dividing the two kinds of waiting between youth and half-life Lilac (core image of boyhood) Corresponding to the obscurity, restraint, and silent love hidden in day and night companionship in the teenage years, the lilacs covering the dirt road to and from junior high school represent the needless companionship day and night, the heartbeat that is close but dare not touch. It is the "visible but ungraspable" tenderness of the two people in their teenage years, and symbolizes the unburdened, pure, but dare not expose the youthful love. Lavender (core image of reconciliation in adulthood) The flower language of lavender is "waiting for love", which is the ultimate password to unlock half-life misunderstandings. As an adult, Lu Xi read Xu Xi's old poems and understood: Xu Xi has been waiting for him alone for many years, while Lu Yu has always been watching. Lavender takes over the regrets of young Lilac and points out the deep intention of the whole text: One-sided waiting cannot support two-way love. If you wait for a long time and never wait for the other party to take the initiative, no matter how deep the love is, it will slowly be exhausted; by the time adults understand the language of flowers and see all the grievances clearly, the two have already started their own families, leaving only the awakening that is too late. The two sets of images form a complete closed loop: lilacs hide secret love in youth, and lavender resolves regrets in half a life. Flowers and plants are used as metaphors to run through more than twenty years, completing the emotional progression of "the implicit heartbeat of youth - the sudden realization of adulthood". The gentle and natural images are used to eliminate the sharpness of tragedy and give regrets a poetic weight. 3. The Times and Growth Concept: Nine-year compulsory education and studying in other places have widened the life distance between the two generations. The story relies on the background of the 1990s when all nine-year compulsory education students were admitted directly, county boarding high schools, and distant universities in other provinces/northwest, and describes the invisible fragmentation of the emotions of rural teenagers caused by the environment of the times: There was no pressure to advance directly to junior high school, which gave the two people a lilac road to accompany each other every day, which was the most relaxing and tender time for teenagers; County No. 1 Middle School boarding high-pressure senior high school and strict campus discipline isolated the two from daily interaction. Rumors and the pressure to enter higher education overwhelmed Xu Xi, leading to the first estrangement of a three-page rejection letter; The universities are separated by thousands of miles, thousands of kilometers of mountains and rivers block offline communication, and fragmented online chats amplify misunderstandings, completely solidifying the distance between the two. The idea implies a layer of realistic thinking: The times have given ordinary people the opportunity to go out of the countryside to study, but they have also torn apart the childhood memories in the countryside; the emotions of teenagers cannot withstand the limitations of space barriers, the pressure of further education and the lack of information. The pure emotions of youth will eventually give way to the future of life, writing about the involuntary sense of fate of small people under the torrent of the times. 4. Human nature: A moment of impulse is enough to consume more than ten years of tender bonds. The key turning point in the full text - the sentence "I have a girlfriend" by Lu Yu in his senior year is intended to delve into the hopelessness of emotional impulse in long-term relationships. Twelve years of careful companionship and Xu Xi's plan to travel thousands of miles were all ruined by a piece of news. The author intends to express: Young people's emotional sensitivity and weak self-control will become a sharp blade that cuts off the bonds of many years; many half-life regrets are never a accumulation of major conflicts, but just a hasty and impulsive choice in youth, which can never be undone. At the same time, the complex nature of human nature is dialectically written: the two of them have no negative roles, Lu Yu is not heartless, and Xu Xi has never changed his heart, but they are not mature enough and do not understand empathy. They cannot see the grievances and expectations hidden in the silence of the other party. The rift caused by impulse, no matter how guilty you are in adulthood, there is no room to make up for it. 5. Reconciliation intention: Regrets do not need to be dissolved, coexist tenderly with the missed youth The ending of the novel is not to force a happy ending, but to establish the core value proposition that "regret is the normal state of youth, and reconciliation does not mean letting go": After reuniting as adults, all misunderstandings were solved, and the whole truth about Xu Guidu's adventure and years of silent waiting was revealed. Lu Yu was filled with guilt, but he would not abandon his existing family. The two of them abided by their boundaries and only remained close friends; It points out the unsolvable proposition in life: some heartbeats are only suitable to stay in youth. After each has a family and responsibilities, and then understands the two-way rush back then, the ending cannot be changed; The final point is not to forget regrets, but to accept misses. Lu Yu collects notepads, mechanical pencils, bracelets and other old childhood belongings. He still loses consciousness when he smells the fragrance of lilac and lavender flowers, but he no longer indulges in self-torture and understands that the twelve-year secret love is his own precious memory. Missing it is fate, and meeting him is already a gift. It abandons the clichéd youth ending of "broken mirror and reunited", and conveys a mature emotional outlook: there is no need to regret missing out when you are young, and there is no need to insist on perfection. Adult maturity is to admit the timidity and mistakes of the past, let go of obsession, guard the current life, properly store the regrets of half a life, and reconcile with the tenderness of youth. 6. Group empathy: written to all timid and passive ordinary people It goes beyond the love story of a single man and woman and extends the core of universal empathy: the youth of most ordinary people does not have the excitement of brave confession and two-way rush, but more secret love hidden in the heart that dare not be spoken, passing encounters, missed appointments, and late goodbyes. Lu Yu's cowardice and Xu Xi's forbearance are the epitome of the youth of countless ordinary people: we were both like Lu Yu, who silently treasured each other's small belongings, repeatedly edited and deleted messages, and lingered at each other's door countless times without knocking; we were also like Xu Xi, who had our best intentions but was afraid of others' comments, silently waiting for the other party to take the initiative, but in the end our wait failed. The novel uses this story of childhood memories that have been missed for half a lifetime to comfort all readers who are haunted by their youthful ambitions: your timidity, hesitation, and late rush are never unique shortcomings. They are the common features of a generation of youth who are young, clumsy, and afraid to move forward.