Self-Destruction

"Willing to Fall" is a sadomasochistic novel with two male protagonists. It tells the story of the twisted, dangerous and inextricable emotional entanglement between a blind young master and a dank housekeeper. Protagonist setting: · Jiang Lianyu - the heir to the Jiang family, was born with amblyopia and became completely blind due to extreme grief after his father's funeral. Fragile and sensitive, but gradually seeing the truth in the darkness, turning from victim to accomplice. · Lu Chenzhou—the young butler of the Jiang family, who entered the family at the age of seventeen, is silent, restrained, and impeccable. Every night he would sneak into the young master's room, watch silently, and leave notes filled with morbid love words. Core plot: · After becoming blind, Jiang Lianyu found someone standing by his bed watching him every night - he knew it was Lu Chenzhou, but he never revealed it. · He turned to his father's last words: "The way Lu Chenzhou looked at Lian Yu was wrong." And the conditions in the will: Only when his eyes recover can he inherit the family property. · More cruel truths followed: he looked like his mother, and his mother had saved the sixteen-year-old Lu Chenzhou. For the past eleven years, when Lu Chenzhou looked at him, was he looking at him, or was he looking at another person through him? · Jiang Lianyu decided to receive treatment - not because he wanted to see the light, but because he wanted to see with his own eyes the way Lu Chenzhou looked at him. Style features: · First person/limited knowledge perspective, a large number of sensory descriptions (hearing, touch, smell) · The atmosphere is gloomy and humid, with strong emotions and a strong sense of lines · Core images: silent gaze, stand-in In one sentence: a young master who fell in darkness, a housekeeper who drowned in obsession - he didn't know whether he loved her or him who looked like her. Concept: the alienation and self-deception of love, love can be a voluntary imprisonment, and the truth can be an abyss of active avoidance. In the dark, no one can distinguish between "love you" and "love like your shadow"