Lin Xi, 22 years old, was admitted as a medical student from a small town and was thrown into the thoracic surgery department on the first day of her internship.
The teacher, a cold-faced senior, handed her a stack of medical records: "Bed No. 5, A child with leukemia. The family wants to discuss giving up treatment. You go."
She froze in place: "It's only my first day..."
He has turned around and left.
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The little patient is gone. She squatted in the dressing room and cried, and the door was knocked twice.
"Remember to come out after crying. Your patient is still waiting for you."
It's that cold-faced senior brother again. He handed over a pack of tissues, but there was no sympathy in his eyes.
Later she found out that his name was Gu Shuo, the youngest attending surgeon in the Department of Thoracic Surgery. His hand is steadier than anyone else's, and his heart is colder than anyone else's.
He would not speak for her when she was complained by a patient, nor would he say "I will help you" when she was snatched away from surgery by Deputy Director Liu.
He would only cross out the medical record when she made a mistake and say one word: "Change."
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Later, someone asked her: From an intern who dared not speak out even after being scolded, to a doctor who can stand alone, what is the most difficult thing?
She said: It's not about learning technology or working late nights.
It is about learning not to bow down when being told that "female doctors are not as good as men".
It's about learning to say "I can" when asked "Can you do it?"
It's about learning to be your own backer when the whole world rejects you.
And Gu Shuo, the man who never praised her, said something when she was on duty for the last time——
(He didn't finish, but her eyes lit up.)
Intention: True growth is to become your own light