My name is Cheng Meinan, I should be the legendary charming girl, my high school classmates said so.
I think they are right. Saying a few words to a boy will make my heart beat faster, and the unavoidable physical contact will make me blush with thoughts. I want to be loved, to be wooed, to receive flowers and gifts. But I have single eyelids, a big mouth, and a body like a washboard, so handsome guys won't give me a second glance. Occasionally, I chat with someone who uses the avatar of an Internet idol on the date software, and the content immediately slides to "Yuebo, give me a gift."
I don't want to.
No one loves me. My parents, my parents' girlfriends and my boyfriends don't like me. I have no friends, and the kitten doesn't like me either. Ruan Lin made a video for me one day. She went to work as a store manager at a cat cafe for a day, and the kitten dumplings rubbed at her feet, as well as the girls who were dressed up to their hair. She is a live streamer with many fans and can chat and play games live. I don't know how to play games, so I don't know how good she is. But I came across her TikTok, where she posted hand gesture dances, and each post had hundreds of thousands of likes. Some people below called her goddess, while others called her husband.
I hate her very much. She can make a lot of money by accepting advertisements every month, and some people ask her to sign autographs at comic conventions. I was so bored that I followed her to work as an assistant. They gave her many gifts and handwritten letters.
Why.
Today is the 32nd time that I have been rejected by the editor. Unexpectedly, haha, how could someone be rejected 32 times and still write shamelessly. I flushed my tears down with the blood in the toilet, and when I returned to the dormitory hunched over, I texted "Sister C", "I was denied a visa again, sister."
As soon as the transmission was successful, there were two dings coming from behind.
Ruan Lin came back with her and my water glasses, and asked as usual, "Help me play games again." But I pressed her phone and couldn't speak.
We took turns running around campus, and I knew her cell phone password. I would rather never know it. The teacher sister who enthusiastically guides my writing, the young readers who like and leave long comments on every chapter, and the bodhisattva artist who draws fanart for me. . . They are all the same person.
She took pity on me and saw me amusing myself alone, so she played pranks on me, and I foolishly thought I had met my soulmate.
First person, diary style, realistic, running account.
Gentle, black-faced and cold-faced cute sister 1×low self-esteem, sensitive, loveless pillow princess 0
Ruan Lin×Cheng Meinan
Purpose: Cherish the people around you
