Just think of it as my suicide note.
I was born into this world with nothing, and now I have to rush to hell with nothing.
What my name is actually doesn't matter anymore. Others usually call me "An", which is just one word, An.
Looking back on my life, perhaps I can only use the word "bad" to evaluate it. I really want to die, but not yet. I have to finish writing this suicide note, and then... Walk quietly without disturbing any passers-by.
If you read these last words I wrote, then I hope you can live with my expectations.
I'm sick.
The doctor told me that I have at most one year to live.
However, how much I hope and how much I pray that you can take my place - don't give up hope in life.
So, let me introduce myself. My name is Gu An. As for age... I can't remember clearly. My body is overloaded, so I am now extremely fragile. I may not be a so-called good person. I smoke and drink, and I even bear charges that most people consider disgusting and unreasonable.
Yes, as a girl, I like girls. In this world that is still not tolerated by the secular world, I don't know where the future will go.
I don't like to communicate with anyone by nature. Only on the Internet can I show a trace of enthusiasm. Because we don't really see each other through the screen. There may be my loneliness hidden in it, or it may be mixed with some negative emotions, or maybe I simply won't be able to sustain the day when this book is finished...
Well... I still like her to this day. It's just a pity that I have quietly withdrawn from her life. That's good, at least I won't be a burden to them anymore...
Wb: Su Mingyue-author
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Continuous updates: update a chapter every 1-5 days
Intention: Hear the thunder in the silence, see the glimmer of light in despair