Between Ears

She called him brother, but he was never just her brother. From the moment Pei Pei can remember, her whole world is Pei Yu. He picked her up as an infant from the ruins after her mother left, and named her - Pei Pei, Pei for companionship. He hopes she can always stay with him. He was only eight years old that year. The father has moved away, the mother has disappeared, and relatives regard them as a burden. Pei Yu used a pair of car repairs to polish her calloused hands, and she was raised from a baby to adulthood by herself. He gave her his only quilt and slept on the sofa; he pushed all the delicious food into her bowl and ate steamed buns in the kitchen; in order to let her study, he gave up his transcript and joined an auto repair shop at the age of sixteen. He was silent, restrained, and lived like a shadow, locking all the emotions he shouldn't have into the deepest part of the box. She was the only fulcrum for his survival, but he never dared to say it. Later, when she grew up, the relationship between them became more and more unclear - sitting back to back with a door apart, neither of them dared to turn around first. Until her senior year of high school, a senior named Jiang Zhixu broke into her life. Jiang Zhixu is the complete opposite of her brother. She is gentle, relaxed, and smiles like the wind in early summer. She will quietly close the notebook for lateness at the school gate and let her go. She will remember that she only drinks red bean milk tea with 30% sugar when she has a bad stomach. She will take all the little things she mentions casually to heart. What he gave her was something she had never experienced before - healthy, light love that did not require her to repay with guilt. He said: "You can live for yourself for once." Two men, two loves. A man who put his whole life on her shoulders, so heavy that she couldn't breathe, but also so profound that she had nowhere to escape. The one who spread the whole world in front of her gave her freedom and choice, but also made her heart feel sour every time she looked back. When she was eighteen years old, she stood at a fork in the road of life. Go to a distant place or go back to your home on the eleventh floor? Choose the person who gave her light, or choose the person who has been waiting for her in the darkness her whole life? Some people use their whole lives to fulfill it, some people use their whole life to wait, and some people use their whole life to remember. Pei Pei spent his entire youth learning what love is between fetters and freedom. Concept: She was once involved in two kinds of love. One was the heavy bondage, the other was the light freedom. But in the end, he did not choose anyone, but found himself first.