A man who has had low self-esteem due to body shame since he was a child has chosen to "obey the distribution" time and time again in college entrance examinations, postgraduate entrance examinations, and marriages - replacing "what he really wants" with "what he should want."
He studied a major he didn't like, married a wife who was "suitable for marriage" but not loving enough, and became an "absent" husband in their twenty-year marriage. He used work, lust, and money to fill the growing hole in his heart, until his body issued a warning, the workplace collapsed, and his life hit rock bottom.
It wasn't until he met a woman at the age of fifty that he and she built "us" day by day and bloomed sunny flowers on the ruins.
This is a man who, in the countercurrent of being "adjusted", spent half his life sinking to make a choice that obeyed his heart, confirmed his "first choice" amidst the entanglement, and moved forward bravely amid guilt.
Intention: From "being transferred" to "first choice" - a half-life dive, a true self-choice.