"The Ups and Downs of Deer Dreams"
"After all, how many people really have a deer, but they don't know how to dream of being a fish all day long." '
Yu Zhenlu, who had an SCI and was in debt of RMB 1.07 Million, put antidepressants in vitamin bottles. He lives in a 10-square-meter north-facing hut, and scares everyone away with his bad personality during blind dates - he only feels that he is not worthy of being loved.
Until Lu Mengyu came to the cafe. She read the sentence in the acknowledgments of his thesis, 'May all lonely carriers find their target cells', just to 'see' him.
He wanted to get closer, but a voice oozed from his bones: You are not worthy, your debt has not been paid, and your illness has not been cured. He pushed her away with the coldest words and said, 'How can I bear to let a fish trap a cloud?' Lu Mengyu didn't leave. She said: 'I'm not waiting for you to "get better", I'm waiting for you to "get better". '
This is not a story about love saving everything, but about someone sitting on the edge of the abyss, neither reaching out nor leaving. Debts will be paid and doses will be reduced, but the feeling of unworthiness is a deeper spiritual debt that will take a long time to repay.
The novel borrows Huang Tingjian's poem to ask: If the deer is auspiciousness and happiness, is "getting the deer" the end? Or is it the lonely school of fish named 'Dream Fish', which doesn't know the end but still swims-itself is the answer? "
Purpose: Encourage everyone who is in the trough that there will be a glimmer of light that exists for you
