Beautiful Vegetation

This is not a "saved by love" story. Fang Fei did not gain happiness because of the appearance of a certain man, nor did she suddenly recover just because she entered college or found a job. Little by little, word by word, she changed herself from a "defined person" to a "writer", starting from her grandfather using a pencil to write her name on the back of the cigarette box, to her using a pencil to write "Fang Fei has gone to school" in the pinyin book, to her using a blue notebook to write "Beijing" and "Philippines", and finally using a reporter's pen to write other people's stories and her own life. This is not a "suffering exhibition" story. Coal piles, roadblocks, surrender of insurance, living under the shelter of others, being raped, and seven years of consumption. These traumas are not overly exaggerated, but are presented in a restrained and physical way. The pain is real, but it is not the end. Fang Fei's growth is not about "overcoming" these traumas, but learning to move on with them. The pencil stubs she had used, the candy wrappers she had traced over and over again, the broken chalk stubs, and the rubber bands given by Liu Yuan were all put into the cardboard box by her, not forgotten, but placed. This is not a "binary" story. Parents are not purely evil - the mother will cry late at night and say "my daughter is not worthy of being like me", the father will put on his only intact jacket and send her to school. The aunt took them in while calculating the balance of "face" with her eyes. Chen Shanshan is her mirror image and her warning. The words "don't be like me" are heavier than any preaching. Liu Yuan is a short-lived light who taught her that relationships between people don't need to be based on scoring. Qu Ruiyang is her projection of "order" and "security", and it is also an emotion destined to be separated. Everyone has their own limitations and helplessness. There is no absolute good or bad, only different degrees of difficulties and struggles. This is not an "escape" story. Fang Fei did not leave the Northeast, did not abandon her original family, and did not "counterattack" to a certain glorious class. Her achievements are quiet and introverted, she learned not to practice smiling in the mirror, learned to turn the "scoring system" from a survival tool into a skill that can be turned off, and learned to find glimmers of light for herself in the long winter. She didn't know what happiness looked like, but she no longer felt pain. In other words, the painful area is still there, but it no longer occurs day and night. This is a story of "survive and then slowly become yourself". It took twenty years for the invisible seed beside the coal pile to finally poke out its first leaf from under the frozen soil. Concept: A girl who has been regarded as "extra" since birth spent nearly twenty years confirming the value of her existence.