I am the third girl who was born in secret in my family in the 1980s.
As soon as he was born, he was given to another family.
I thought it was a new life,
Unexpectedly, after an illness, I was sent back the same way.
My parents think I am redundant, my brothers and sisters think I am a burden,
The cold food at home, the blank looks from others,
It was my entire childhood.
They all thought I wouldn't live long,
I feel like this is the way it will be for the rest of my life.
But I want to live,
I just want to live a personal life.
From the girl who was discarded and returned,
Step by step, find your own way to survive.
Purpose: This article is set in the countryside of northern Shaanxi in the 1980s. It tells the story of Yang Mengmei, the fourth daughter who was regarded as redundant, was almost sent away at birth, and was rejected due to illness. In an environment that values boys over girls, poverty and embarrassment, she goes from being despised and abandoned to refusing to accept her fate or bow her head. Step by step, she relies on her own tenacity and kindness to break free from the shackles of fate, and finally lives a life of self-respect and glory. The work aims to write about the power of ordinary women: Even if they are born humble, are not expected, and are looked down upon, even if they live on the barren yellow land, girls can be like plum blossoms in the cold winter, growing against the wind and facing the sun, and living out their own dignity and value.