Pregnant Husband

[World view setting]: Modern fantasy, men can get pregnant. After puberty, a "gestational sac" develops in the body of a male, which is connected to the urinary system and has complete reproductive functions. Women retain traditional reproductive organs, but the mainstream reproductive responsibilities in society have been transferred to men. I am a top killer, codenamed Ghost Zero. On my last mission, I saw the smile of a girl in the sniper scope of Tower Bridge. That smile was so bright that my finger on the trigger froze for a second. In that second, a stray bullet accidentally killed her lover beside her. I fled in a hurry, but as if I was addicted to drugs, I peeked into her dead life after returning to China for a whole year. Until she mistakenly recognized me when she was drunk and dragged me into a chaotic night. I obeyed despicably, but secret ecstasy burned in my heart - even if she called someone else's name. Two months later, the pregnancy test showed two red lines. I touched my still flat belly and laughed softly in the darkness of the rental house. Very nice. This stolen evidence is my only ticket to get closer to her. I changed my surname to "Jin" and moved across from her. Learned how to stew pears with rock sugar, memorized all the habits of her deceased husband, and imitated them stiffly when they "encountered" her. She was always gentle and distant, until the cup of black tea she brewed herself was handed to me. "Do you want to add lemon?" She raised her eyes, her eyes calm, "One piece, or two pieces?" My hand holding the tea cup was shaking. Morning sickness, backache, fetal movements... The changes in the body are becoming increasingly difficult to conceal. What is even more difficult to hide is the crazily growing lust and fear when I look at her. I know that the net I cast is suffocating myself. And she was on the other side of the Internet, quietly watching my show that was full of loopholes. She knew it clearly but never exposed it. Until that sultry night, I had severe abdominal pain and rushed out of the room in a cold sweat. In the dim light of the corridor, she came back from get off work and bumped into me. My soaked thin shirt clung to my body, the curvature of my lower abdomen, and the dying panic in my eyes had nowhere to hide. She stopped and looked from my pale face to my hands unconsciously protecting my lower abdomen. After a long silence, she asked softly: "Do you need help?" At that moment I knew—— The light I stole, the sin I atoned for, the love I humbled for survival, and the life growing quietly in my belly... All the dirty secrets will have nowhere to hide in front of this woman. And she was the only salvation I glimpsed after pushing open the door to hell with my own hands. Demining: First-person perspective of the pregnant male protagonist Intention: "With the sin of killing your lover and stealing your bones and blood, I kneel in the abyss and raise my head to beg for your light." - Jin Shichuan