The first page of Lin Zhixu's notebook says "Controllable", and the last page is blank. During the intervening twelve years, she recorded his breathing, the color of his curtains, and the classification of blood stains on his menstrual underwear—but not when she began to smear ink. Chen Yu said, "I'll wait for twelve years for you to have an answer." She said, "I want you to delete 'if'." He said, "I want you to change 'controllable' to 'willing'." She changed it, but found that what she changed was the sixteen-year-old handwriting on the back of the pressure-sensitive paper, which she had forgotten to write.
Intention: Two disabled people use reason to build a contract, replace trust with gaming, and finally learn to coexist out of control. The essence of love is not to "be seen", but to allow oneself not to be completely seen - and at the same time trust that the other person will not take advantage of this blind spot.