I have been world-weary since I was a child. I hate this world. I hate it. Life is the most painful oxidation reaction. I just want to live to the age of 18 and then give up everything.
It would be nice to have some experience before giving up, for example, falling in love with a handsome guy.
I confessed my love to the most handsome man I met.
He agreed and said please live a good life for me because I love you.
Hand in hand for six years.
I start a business and I want others to know about school bullying. He said I will give you money.
I wanted to write a book, and he said I support you, and then he participated in a drinking party for me.
When I went abroad, he said we would go together and we would learn the language together.
He said his dream is for me to be happy.
It's just that I lied to him. My happiness is not to be a writer, not to be famous, or to be rich, but to be with him, forever.
The world is so dangerous, I roar forward, but I am not afraid. If the world collapses, I can hide in his arms.
Until I discover his secret, we can't go back. Brother Chuxi, I miss you so much.
The love you gave me has lasted throughout my life. Those words were too heavy for me at 18, but they supported me until I was 26. I love you, but we can only go so far.
Intention: Love is support, I will always believe in love.