This is a time-travel narrative.
Among the choices in reality, some are my active choices, some are my unconscious choices, and the universe is kind to me, allowing fate to pull me at the critical moment and force me to make the best choice.
I tried to reconstruct the narrative and write all the choices as "my own active choices", because now I have the strength to make such choices. In the process of writing, I also became more and more powerful.
Reconstructing the narrative, things are still happening as they were before. At the same time, the current me travels back and uses the light of the present to re-illuminate the trauma of the past.
This is also the most touching thing about evolutionary astrology - time is not linear, and neither is evolution. They spiral and repeat, and the soul can always choose to be reborn in the present.
Purpose: Escape from the beast