Indulge in This Moment

Shen Shuyuan is the kind of girl who can't be found if she is thrown into a crowd. She looks pretty but not outstanding, has average grades, and a quiet personality, like a glass of lukewarm boiled water. And Lu Yanzhou is the most dazzling person in the school - handsome, always surrounded by suitors, always looking like a carefree gangster, fighting, skipping classes, and contradicting teachers. He is a "problem student" in the eyes of the teacher. No one knows that Shen Shuyuan has been secretly in love with Lu Yanzhou since the first year of high school. She would secretly look at his side face sleeping on the table during class, would silently stand on the sidelines to hand out water when he was playing ball, and would quietly collect the scratch paper he threw on the desk and hide it in his diary. Her love was like candy hidden in her pocket, so sweet that she was cautious, but she never dared to let him know. Until one day, Shen Shuyuan mustered up the courage to confess her love to him, and he actually agreed. Shen Shuyuan thought he had finally waited for a fairy tale, but after they got together, he realized that his world was too big and too noisy to squeeze in a quiet person like her. He still went his own way, drinking late at night with his brothers, and there were always girls around him to show their attentiveness; but she could only get a little tenderness when he occasionally thought of her. His world is still noisy, and her world is still quiet. The love he gave was too hot and too casual, but all she wanted was a stable companionship. Contradictions accumulate in disappointment after disappointment. Shen Shuyuan finally couldn't help but ask him: "Lu Yanzhou, do you really care about me?" He was silent for a long time, and the light in his eyes dimmed, and he said, "Do you really think that I don't care about you? Have you really never felt it?" On the day we broke up, it was raining. Shen Shuyuan stood at the door of the teaching building and watched Lu Yanzhou holding an umbrella and walking into the rain side by side with another girl. She suddenly understood that some people are destined to only accompany you for a certain distance. Many years later, Shen Shuyuan saw Lu Yanzhou's wedding photos in WeChat Moments. In the photo, he is wearing a suit, smiling softly, showing his iconic tiger teeth, and the bride next to him is very beautiful, his eyebrows and eyes look a bit like her, but he is brighter and more confident than her. She stared at the photo for a long time, then turned off her phone and moved on with her life. It turns out that some people, even if they are not together in the end, will leave deep traces in their memory. Just like he was once the most dazzling light in Shen Shuyuan's youth, illuminating her secret love and teaching her to grow. Intention: Youth is often accompanied by regrets that we do not know how to cherish and misses that we cannot look back on, but it is these experiences that shape who we are later.