The Thirty-Second Confession

Gu Shen had a long dream. In the dream, he lived thirty-one times, and each time he met Lin Yu in the spring when he was seventeen, and then watched Lin Yu die in his arms. The first time was a car accident. The second time was myocarditis. The third time was drowning. The fourth time was jumping off the roof of the teaching building. The fifth, sixth, and seventh times... The methods of death were different, but the ending never changed. When he opened his eyes for the thirty-second time, Gu Shen was squatting in the stall of the women's toilet. There were still forty minutes before the end of evening self-study. He knew that Lin Yu would pass by this corridor, knew that Lin Yu would push the door open, and knew that Lin Yu would stand in front of the sink and wash his hands. He knows everything. The only thing he didn't know was whether he could let Lin Yu survive April 15th this time. Thirty-two time travels, thirty-one deaths. At the last chance, he decided to change his approach - no longer take the initiative to approach, no longer try to change the plot, no longer do anything that might trigger death. However, this time, Lin Yu walked towards him first. "You smell of blood." Lin Yu said. Gu Shen looked down at his hands. That was the blood left by Lin Yu in the previous timeline, and it couldn't be washed away after thirty-two reincarnations. "Let's go, let's take you home." Lin Yu put the school uniform on him, held his hand, and walked into the March night. Gu Shen followed him for two steps and suddenly realized something. This time, Lin Yu seemed to know everything. A boy who traveled through time thirty-two times to save a person, and a boy who might have known him thirty-two times a long time ago. In the spring of their seventeenth year, they met for the third time. But this time, Gu Shen vowed to rewrite more than just Lin Yu's death date. And the question he never dared to ask - do you know that I have loved you for thirty-two lifetimes? Purpose: Even if the ending seems destined, every run counts. This is a story about "not giving up". Gu Shen traveled through thirty-two times and failed thirty-one times. Each time, he watched the person he wanted to protect die with his own eyes. By any rational calculation, he should have given up. But he didn't. He squatted in the women's restroom, stood on the playground, and waited at every intersection that Lin Yu must pass, using his increasingly aging body and firmer determination to do it again and again. This is not a story about superpowers, but a story about "I have to force myself". No matter how watertight the script of fate is, there will be no one who is willing to risk his life to change it. Even if the thirty-second time is still in vain, even if his time travel ability is accelerating to exhaustion, even if he is quietly aging in someone else's seventeenth year - he still has to try. Because for Gu Shen, Lin Yu is not an option that can be replaced. Is the only answer. The idea lies in "running in both directions" and "the weight of time and memory". Gu Shen remembered every death, and Lin Yu seemed to have secrets hidden in his body. When Gu Shen decided not to take the initiative this time, Lin Yu reached out his hand first. In the thirty-two reincarnations, who is waiting for whom, who is looking for whom, who is loving whom - this is what the story really wants to tell.