When she was seven years old, Liu Xirui was choked by someone at the roller skating rink. Two unfamiliar senior sisters helped her up and led her through the last two laps. That was the first time she was picked up by her "sister".
Later, she met Liu Xiyan, a "sister" who was always gentle and always waiting for her to come home. From the oranges in the stairwell to the story on the school bus, from junior high school when she was laughed at by her classmates to the summer when she worked alone to save money to go see her, Sister Qian was like a beam of light, illuminating her gray growth path.
But the harm from the original family is like a thorn: the mother's "oil bottle", the stepfather's family who "eats silently and sleeps silently", and the grandmother's family's cold eyes. She studied hard, wanted to be a pilot, and wanted to escape from everything. However, Li Lin's unexpected death, the betrayal of her first love, and the frustration in the workplace made her retreat again and again into the fantasy world where only Sister Qian existed.
Until one day, she discovers that Sister Qian may have never really existed. She is the person she built brick by brick with all the fragments of being loved.
This is a coming-of-age novel about dependence and independence, trauma and healing, fantasy and awakening. From hiding behind door frames, to lighting lamps for herself, to flying above the clouds - it took a girl nearly twenty years to finally learn to love herself.
Concept: The core concept of this novel can be summarized as: In an environment lacking love, how does a person rebuild a "guardian" in his heart by collecting scattered goodwill, and finally learn to protect himself. To put it more bluntly: The person you thought was protecting you is actually the power you created for yourself. And to truly grow up is to dare to say goodbye to this fantasy and stand up on your own. What it explores is not the luck of "being loved", but "how to grow the ability to love yourself in the absence of love."