Shen Zhiyi's boyhood was a boundless prison completely trapped by school bullying and depression. From junior high school to the second year of high school, punches, taunts, and cold eyes crushed his body day after day, engraved into his bones and blood. The word "BD" became the shackles that he did not dare to show to others, making him hide himself in the corner, like a plant that cannot see the light. He endured the pull of emotions alone in the middle of the night when no one knew him, thinking that he would sink in loneliness all his life.
Until the appearance of transfer student Jiang Xubai
This young man, who carries both defiance and gentleness, is like an unexpected light that shields him from bullying and confronts the malice of the world. He becomes the only salvation in his dark life and the only sugar in his barren years. But the brighter the light, the more inferior Shen Zhiyi felt in the darkness. He was afraid that his illness would drag down the other person and taint this passionate love. He completely collapsed in the whirlpool of love and self-denial. Finally, he said goodbye to this world in the quietest way, and also said goodbye to the boy he loved deeply but dared not have.
After Shen Zhiyi left, Jiang Xubai's world completely lost its light. On Valentine's Day the next year, amid the fireworks and roses all over the city, the boy who once fought for him against the whole world followed his traces and rushed to the same eternal farewell.
Their love began in the mud, flourished in the glimmer of light, and finally ashes. There is no perfection, no redemption, only the deep-seated cruelty and eternal regret - the most painful thing in the world is never separation, but a deep love. In the end, both of them return to the dust, leaving only a past that no one knows, slowly disappearing over the years.
Purpose: Using campus bullying and BD (bipolar disorder) as the background, write about a tragic homosexual relationship that redeems each other in the dark, but ultimately leads to two-way suicide due to trauma and low self-esteem. It explores the lifelong imprint of primary trauma on individuals, the boundaries between love and redemption, and the powerlessness and regret behind extreme tenderness.
