Pei Yanzhen wrote on the first page of his notebook: "I would like to be as close to the truth as possible, even if it is as invisible as the sun."
Department of Psychology, Zhejiang University, 18 years old, everything seems to be the starting point of a new life for an ordinary girl. She has a friend, Jiang Che, who can put mints in his pocket for her, and a roommate, Lin Xi, who can't make the bed but can accurately interpret her name in one sentence. The days should be peaceful. But the city of Hangzhou has a very low fault tolerance rate. She met a man fourteen years her senior, with the most sophisticated mind and the most imperceptible control she had ever seen. He doesn't say "I want to protect you," but every problem she encounters is solved before she even opens her mouth. She was incorporated into his order bit by bit - delicate, thoughtful, impeccable, like a canary kept in the best cage. She wasn't unaware of this. She studies psychology, and she can dismantle the power structure of every relationship. But she found that seeing the shape of the cage clearly did not mean having the ability to get out - especially when the temperature in the cage happened to be the kind of warmth she had never received in her native family.
This is the story of a girl who learns to define herself while being defined by others. About desire, about sobriety, about those things that we think we have seen through but are always avoiding.
Her name is Pei Yanzhen. Tell the truth.
It took her four years of college to truly learn to tell the truth to herself.
Intention: Human growth is not from ignorance to omniscience, but from "thinking that one has seen everything clearly" to "acknowledging that there are things that one cannot see"
