Double man, be, ancient
first point of view
I originally wanted to waste my whole life with hatred like this.
I don't seem to want to believe his suspicion of me - so I believe in the former possibility.
I don't know what's wrong with me, but I don't want to think too much - I actually start to fear the worst answer. In the previous 22 years, I had never felt like this - this feeling that things were out of control, this feeling... Of trusting others.
May you be well and see you in the next life.
Purpose: redemption