The most profound relationship in my childhood did not develop. Was it because of my cowardice or my perseverance? Is it due to my misconceptions or my paranoid personality? The point of exploring this is no longer to clarify our relationship, but to clearly show myself who I am. I gradually saw that when I was a boy, I was a person who was confused by fallacies, a person who could not bear the blow of failure, a person who wanted life more than feelings (Xiaoyou said: Leave a place for feelings in life), a person who did not dare to face the impulse of his life, and a person who was defeated by himself.
I don't know if Xiaoyou has been hurt too much. If she is my other half, the better half, the gentle, tolerant and firm other half, I hope she can live a better life in this world than me. She deserves a good life, because in the pursuit of her true life, she has never been as cold, cowardly, and withdrawn as me. For such a person, even God cannot but pity her.
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