Before my brother was born, I was the only center of the family, and all the love was poured into me without reservation. But as soon as he landed, everything changed. I became inferior and timid, like a piece of dust forgotten in a corner. In order to get even a glimmer of attention, I studied hard and got one certificate after another. But no matter how good his grades were, they couldn't make him sigh softly.
I slowly learned to pretend, and looked indifferent on the surface, but the longing for love in my heart grew like a weed.
When I got to high school, I met that guy. He is confident and cheerful, like a person who was born surrounded by light. He has a happy family and always has a smile in his eyes when talking about his parents. I looked at him with strong envy and a hint of sour jealousy in my heart. So I started imitating him - the way he spoke, the angle of his smile, even the way he walked. But an ugly duckling is an ugly duckling after all. No matter how hard I try, I can't even compare to a hair of his.
But there is always a way. By chance, I discovered the secret of this proud man - he likes boys. I grasped at straws and quietly spread the news. But no one believed it at all.
I'm not willing to give in. Finally, I decided to go into battle myself and use myself as bait.
However, the sun is the sun after all, and when you get close to it, you can't help but be attracted by its warmth. I began to be intoxicated, began to fall, and in the end, I couldn't tell who was plotting against whom. I only knew that I couldn't live without that light.
Intention: attract each other