Emotions are a transaction in Xia An's life. His family usually tells him that as much time as I spend with you today, you will have to repay the results tomorrow.
His father loved gambling, drinking, and smoking. He never cared about the house all year round. Even if Xia An did something that didn't go as he wanted, he would beat or scold her...
The mother said she loved him, but she said she had more than enough strength, but not enough. She always said she loved him, but she always asked him for something in return. It's similar to, you see, if someone gives you a lollipop, you have to remember it. Your family members are infinitely good to you, so just be content! But what he often receives is more suppression! Or every time you treat him well, you will add a sentence, you have to give better and better things in return in the future, otherwise you will not be sorry for today...
So in Xia An's heart, he doesn't understand what love is. He thinks love is a transaction? Is love weighing pros and cons? The final choice?
Intention: Love and hate are never opposing options, thoughts are determined by the heart.