The wind in Changzhou always carries a dampness and coldness, just like when I met Zheng Yixuan when I was seventeen years old, I couldn't hide the throbbing in my heart.
I have decided since I was 18 that this face-changing artist from Shandong was the person I wanted to marry. We exchanged the future in the heat of the hot pot, tried again and again in Douyin's visitor records, and counted each other's thoughts on both ends of the silent phone.
Later I realized that love without material things cannot go far, and after all, I don't want to suffer for anyone.
I left my phone number in the video that was only visible to him, wrote my obsession between the lines in the book, and watched his trumpet "Fish in a Water Bottle" repeatedly stay on my homepage, but I could no longer wait for that phone call.
The north wind crossed me through the mud of youth, but in the end I could not cross over to him.
It turns out that some love is doomed from the beginning and can only be stored in memories, waiting for someone who will never come back.
Intent: This is a modern love story about obsession and growth, affection and sobriety.
The girl once put all her sincerity and all her expectations on one person, thinking that love can overcome all difficulties, and that sincerity can replace sincerity. She waited amidst the tugging, persisted in memories, wavered again and again in the face of reality, and persisted again and again.
But in the end she understood:
True love is never about humble waiting, self-consumption, or desperate hardship. It is about loving yourself first, then loving others; standing firm first, and then falling in love.
Some encounters are a necessary heartbeat in youth; some partings are to make her become a more independent, clear-headed and stronger self.
The story is about a regretful old relationship, but it is about a girl's growth from falling in love to being sober in the world, from relying on others to relying on herself.
I hope that everyone who has loved seriously can let go of regrets, be independent in wind and rain, and live an open, stable and well-treated life for the rest of their lives.