At the age of twenty-four, Jiang Li became a frequent visitor to the psychological clinic.
On the foreign seaside, between the long periods of insomnia and nightmares, he looked back on his childhood again and again - the hobbies that were denied, the words that were interrupted, and the growth that was required to be "obedient".
In this family, no one has really learned how to express love.
With a silent father and a strong mother, Jiang Li could only grow up with repeated questioning and comparison.
The sea was once the color on TV in his childhood, a gentle being who could cry in songs and listen to stories.
But when he actually stood on the beach, he realized that the sea would not answer any questions.
This is a memory about growing up:
About family, about silence, about people who cannot change.
How can one continue to live when no one else will change?
Purpose: To write about the individual experience of growing up in a family environment that lacks understanding and response. The novel interweaves Jiang Li's memories with reality to present the silence, control and misunderstanding in family relationships, and how a person can slowly learn to get along with himself and continue living without being able to change others.