When Shen Yizhi first met Xu Yang in the old building in Liancheng, he felt that this name should not belong to him.
"Xu Yan" is supposed to be the look that a young man raises when running. It means that his eyes are bright and his smile is eye-catching. But Xu Yang trapped himself in the never-ending rainy day. He was fierce and withdrawn, covering his wounds with indifference, as if the whole world was against him, and everything was filled with moist tiredness.
Shen Yinzhi knows that trying to change someone is the stupidest thing. But she watched him turn the name "Xu Yang" into an antonym, and she couldn't help but reach out to pull him out of the mire.
She would raise her little face and shout:
"Xu Yang, you shouldn't be like this."
"Xu Yang, please be obedient."
Like a little adult, clumsily and stubbornly trying to drag him into the endless sunshine.
Xu Yang only felt that the little girl was pitying him and despising him, so he raised the spikes harder, avoiding her and all the warmth that tried to get close to him. He thought that as long as he was cold and ruthless enough, he would never be abandoned by anyone again.
Later, Shen Yizhi performed well in the college entrance examination and went to study in a far away place, leaving Liancheng.
Xu Yang felt that if she left, the little girl wouldn't be able to see this annoying person. But I can't say what I feel. I live like this day by day, but I always feel that something is missing. He thought that the appearance of the little girl was like a rainy season, and it was impossible to stay there for long. It was enough for him to get wetted by a few raindrops, and he didn't want more.
The little girl who was always following him would never come back. He regretted not listening to her words, regretting not grabbing the only beam of sunshine that was willing to throw into his cloudy sky.
He is still trapped in the rainy day, but Shen Yinzhi, in the sunny day, becomes more and more dazzling.
A brief rain fell on his cloudy sky. It would be nice if some people came over...
"Xu Yang, I'm leaving, you want to..."
"It's up to you. If you want to leave, go quickly. Don't be nagging."
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Purpose: Learn to grow in the company and illumination of youth, accept regrets, learn to reconcile with yourself, and cherish every courage to approach others bravely.